samlovesprilly
Well-Known Member
I lost my mare almost two months ago and am still missing her massively.
I decided to take up the offer of studying abroad for a semester after she was PTS, firstly to keep me occupied and also as I thought the change of scenery would do me good - I thought being back in brighton would be difficult because of the links to April, and so being somewhere new would make it easier.
Gosh, I didn't realise what a huge part horses play in our lives until now; I am not only missing April, but the whole lifestyle aswell. You take for granted that doing to horses gets you out and active every day ... awake at 6am to sort her before uni and back in the evening before work/more studying, being out and active in the fresh air every day without fail and being constantly busy.
Sometimes I found it hard to juggle everything, but I took for granted the amazing lifestyle and social aspects owning a horse come with.
Since being in Amsterdam to study for the past month, I feel a bit lost. Nothing to plan my day around, lots of free time on my hands, no reason to get up in the morning (apart from classes lol), its even easy to not leave the house on the weekend as I have little to fill my time apart from my studies.
I miss being outside, I miss the rolling hills of the South Downs, mucking out, general horsey chit-chat, coming back from a long day of uni and work and looking after April exhausted but fulfilled and falling asleep instantly!
Just a general rant really, I miss a lot of things and want the passion of horse owner-ship back. I want to find something to help me stop being bored and to be my break from studying while I'm here. I'm doing some sightseeing and general touristy stuff, and running lots in preparation of my half-marathon in feb, but still feel like something to really make me content and happy is missing from my life!
Rant over, am going to try and find somewhere to ride nearby (finances permitting) or just hold on until I'm back in Brighton after xmas and can beg or borrow a horsey to play around with!
don't know what i was aiming to achieve with this post, just think I had to get something down in words and hope someone can associate with me! Would take the drudgery of pitch-black cold mornings and tons of mud over winter any day over my situation!!
I decided to take up the offer of studying abroad for a semester after she was PTS, firstly to keep me occupied and also as I thought the change of scenery would do me good - I thought being back in brighton would be difficult because of the links to April, and so being somewhere new would make it easier.
Gosh, I didn't realise what a huge part horses play in our lives until now; I am not only missing April, but the whole lifestyle aswell. You take for granted that doing to horses gets you out and active every day ... awake at 6am to sort her before uni and back in the evening before work/more studying, being out and active in the fresh air every day without fail and being constantly busy.
Sometimes I found it hard to juggle everything, but I took for granted the amazing lifestyle and social aspects owning a horse come with.
Since being in Amsterdam to study for the past month, I feel a bit lost. Nothing to plan my day around, lots of free time on my hands, no reason to get up in the morning (apart from classes lol), its even easy to not leave the house on the weekend as I have little to fill my time apart from my studies.
I miss being outside, I miss the rolling hills of the South Downs, mucking out, general horsey chit-chat, coming back from a long day of uni and work and looking after April exhausted but fulfilled and falling asleep instantly!
Just a general rant really, I miss a lot of things and want the passion of horse owner-ship back. I want to find something to help me stop being bored and to be my break from studying while I'm here. I'm doing some sightseeing and general touristy stuff, and running lots in preparation of my half-marathon in feb, but still feel like something to really make me content and happy is missing from my life!
Rant over, am going to try and find somewhere to ride nearby (finances permitting) or just hold on until I'm back in Brighton after xmas and can beg or borrow a horsey to play around with!
don't know what i was aiming to achieve with this post, just think I had to get something down in words and hope someone can associate with me! Would take the drudgery of pitch-black cold mornings and tons of mud over winter any day over my situation!!