Absolutely broken hearted

So sorry for your loss, i had recently added Herman on facebook after getting my first long haired wemaraner, Your boy was beautiful and it came as a shock to read what had happened.

I lost my short haired weimramer bitch 18 months ago, also to cancer, she was my best friend, its a horrible horrible disease.

I know that nothing anyone says is going to help you right now, but you will learn to get through life without him, its very very hard and the upset will always be there, their like our children xx
 
I nearly didn't open this as i knew what it was going to be obviously. I lost my beloved cara just at the start of august. she had cancer too but i had 5 months before she got ill and i lost her. we were just like you and herman, we were together constantly, apart from going to the shops or out to dinner or something. She was the same about my car too, i never gave her commands as such, just talked to her. I have had a really hard time trying to accept she has gone.
I was really thinking that i couldn't have another, then a wee sweet girl came into my life on monday and has made me smile again. she will never be cara, but she is a lovely wee soul in her own right. I couldn't have not taken her so it was obviously meant to happen. see my thread 'meet Tess'
I hope your heart heals in time, i wouldn't wish that pain on anyone. My old dogs broke my heart too, but they were all 13/14 sort of age so you can accept it but i wasn't ready for Cara going. too young.
I am so sorry.
 
Thank you everyone for thoughts & hugs, they really do mean a lot.

I can't believe it's been a week already (well, in about 12 hours it will be). People have been so amazing, his breeders sent down a huge bunch of flowers & a card which touched me a lot and one of the food reps brought in an Orchid for us. Both are beautiful.

I had to take the cat to the vets to be speyed on Thursday (ironically enough I had taken her to be booked in on Saturday morning) and got myself in to a total state over her being in - so they did her first and rang me as soon as her operation was over and then let me go and collect her ASAP. One of the vets that dealt with Herman was there and she reiterated again how shocked and sorry THEY were and that it was the last thing they expected to find when they opened him up. I need to organise myself to get them a thank you card - for a little vet surgery which has a reputation locally for being 'agricultural' they have been absolutely fantastic this week.

He was just so full of life, thats why I'm finding it so hard to deal with - apart from the being sick there was no outward signs of him being ill, so much so I apologised to the vet for coming down for nothing. However, before we went, I took a 10second video of him - literally just before I put him in the car. Watching it now, he looks ready. Hindsight and all that. I have come down with the most horrendous cold in reaction I think, so I know it still hasn't hit me fully.

I miss him :( and feel very disloyal saying this but the boyfriend & I have been talking and we've decided we want another in time. The next LH litter by his breeders isn't planned till this time next year (ironically enough from a bitch it was suggested we buy when she was born - I'm pleased though now we didn't get her, we thought about it) which although seems so far away, we should hopefully have decided yes for definate. At the moment we're still swinging wildly between not wanting another dog and being desperate for one. I have been told of a litter available now but it wouldn't be fair - on the puppy or us.

Wow. That was a long post, just to say thank you for thoughts & wishes! But yes, thanks. It does mean a lot.
 
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