amabelscott
Well-Known Member
Just had a really bad day and seems like the last 5 months have been like that too, NOTHING good has happened. In the last 5 months, 2 wonderful prospective horses have both failed there vetting, pony who had been going to well and was preparing for BSJA has got a bad back and even when the back lady has been and massaged it etc and given him the all clear he is rushing his fences and refusing and spooking and has forgotten all of the work I have put in, and he wont even go in the trailer now even though he has never had a problem with it before. The only good thing is that we got through to round 2 trailblazers dressage but it still seems completely pointless as I dont even like dressage and so it isnt one of the most exciting things to prepare for. Then in my lesson last week, my trainer who had promised that I would be riding a different horse to the brute of a horse that I have been riding for the last 4 lessons and who has thrown me off 3 times put me on the same horse again and the horse played up really badly and I just really feel like I am getting nowhere in my riding as everything seems to be against me
its really knocking my confidence as I havent had a horse to ride in the last 5 months which hasnt had one problem or another, and I am so desperate for that dream horse to come along even though I feel I cant get my hopes up for anything as the last two failed the vetting. I know that I am so privileged to be able to go to a trainer and stuff but I just think it is a waste of time if I feel like I am not learning anything and dreading my lessons as I am terrified of what horse he might put me on and I find it really hard to tell him that I dont want to ride particular horses as in my heart of hearts I know that he is only doing it to make me a better rider I am fed up of people telling me that I have to ride all these impossible horses before I can ride anything decent because apparently I wont appreciate a well-mannered horse so much unless all the other horses i have ridden before have been b*ggers.. it is so frustrating as I go to boarding school so when I come home I get really disappointed when everything goes wrong as I have been looking forward to it so much, I was really excited for the summer but now all I can expect is bad things to happen! Sorry for the massive rant but Im just having one of those days
edited: oh yeh also just to say that the horse maxxie in my siggie is off work due to a sarcoid in his girth area, the pony sultan is the one with the bad back and the pony doughnut has just been diagnosed with cushings and has been retired... so life not good...
edited: oh yeh also just to say that the horse maxxie in my siggie is off work due to a sarcoid in his girth area, the pony sultan is the one with the bad back and the pony doughnut has just been diagnosed with cushings and has been retired... so life not good...