Jingleballs
Well-Known Member
Ive owned my horse for over 8 years weve had so much fun over the years and Ive done a lot with him but since starting a family I have really struggled to motivate myself.
Its not that I dont have time I can get to the yard 3 or 4 times a week if I want, I just struggle with the motivation.
I seems to come and go Ill go through a phase when I find it relatively enjoyable and then other times its a chore not the day to day care of him (I pay someone to do that) but the actual riding.
I dont enjoy schooling as much as I used to I used to compete so I always had a goal but dont have the transport (or motivation) to do that anymore so I find it harder to motivate or focus myself to school. We have decent hacking but I dont enjoy it as much as I used to when I first got my horse I was a nervous hacker and over the years I got over it but Im not sure if its because Im not riding as much now or because having kids makes you slightly more cautious but I feel more on edge than I did before and again it can feel like a chore hacking him out its something I have to do to try and keep his weight down, keep him in some level of work and let him get out and about rather than something I do because I enjoy it - although sometimes I do enjoy it.
Id much rather spend more time with my child or do things with the dog (Id love to do some cani cross again or some training) but I just dont have time to do it all.
I did consider loaning him out and got loads of interest (hes a pretty bomb proof cob) but bottled it because all the potential loaners were so far away and there was also that risk that he could be returned to me at short notice in a hell of a state (I have plenty of friends with horror stories).
Ive tried getting a sharer but no one suitable could be found. I have even written his for sale add but couldnt go through with it not because I couldnt bear to part with him but the thought of him having an uncertain future terrified me what if I sold him on to someone who worked him into the ground or passed him on again and he spend the rest of his life being passed about/mistreated hes such a good horse that he doesnt deserve that! If I could guarantee him a good home Id be more inclined to sell but you have no say once youve handed over ownership do you?
I know that Ill no doubt starting enjoying it again but for how long? My daughter is 18 months now and this about the 3rd or 4th time Ive considered packing it in do I just need to bite the bullet and do it?
Its not that I dont have time I can get to the yard 3 or 4 times a week if I want, I just struggle with the motivation.
I seems to come and go Ill go through a phase when I find it relatively enjoyable and then other times its a chore not the day to day care of him (I pay someone to do that) but the actual riding.
I dont enjoy schooling as much as I used to I used to compete so I always had a goal but dont have the transport (or motivation) to do that anymore so I find it harder to motivate or focus myself to school. We have decent hacking but I dont enjoy it as much as I used to when I first got my horse I was a nervous hacker and over the years I got over it but Im not sure if its because Im not riding as much now or because having kids makes you slightly more cautious but I feel more on edge than I did before and again it can feel like a chore hacking him out its something I have to do to try and keep his weight down, keep him in some level of work and let him get out and about rather than something I do because I enjoy it - although sometimes I do enjoy it.
Id much rather spend more time with my child or do things with the dog (Id love to do some cani cross again or some training) but I just dont have time to do it all.
I did consider loaning him out and got loads of interest (hes a pretty bomb proof cob) but bottled it because all the potential loaners were so far away and there was also that risk that he could be returned to me at short notice in a hell of a state (I have plenty of friends with horror stories).
Ive tried getting a sharer but no one suitable could be found. I have even written his for sale add but couldnt go through with it not because I couldnt bear to part with him but the thought of him having an uncertain future terrified me what if I sold him on to someone who worked him into the ground or passed him on again and he spend the rest of his life being passed about/mistreated hes such a good horse that he doesnt deserve that! If I could guarantee him a good home Id be more inclined to sell but you have no say once youve handed over ownership do you?
I know that Ill no doubt starting enjoying it again but for how long? My daughter is 18 months now and this about the 3rd or 4th time Ive considered packing it in do I just need to bite the bullet and do it?