Jericho
Well-Known Member
Sorry this is going to be a bit ramble my but have been mulling for a while and as I keep my horses at home I don't really have any one to bounce any thoughts off.
I have posted about my 17 yr old tbx 15.1hh mare before - she is amazingly gentle but for no reason (in the last 6 years) she is increasingly nervous and shy. I have only ever treated her with kindness. She shows no personality or interest in life other than food. She doesn't have any vices and objects to nothing and tolerates everything. Out hacking she plods along ears slumped but panics quickly, schooling or just moing she gets on with it but flaps her bottom lip constantly. She has a lovely life with no stress, friends, warmth, regular vet checks and Physio but she acts like she has given up/doesn't care. She freaks if you touch her ears and no amount of careful handling or densistising has changed this in 6yrs.
She was recently diagnosed with cushings and has been on pergolide for about 4 weeks. I was warned about a depression this drug caused but nothing has changed, she is neither happier or worse. She has an increasingly sway back so her ridden days are limited. She isn't a happy horse compared to most other horses I know. She will just stand tied up looking utterly dejected whilst being groomed or if just being left. She isn't in any marked pain that a Physio or vet can find but I hate seeing her like that - her eyes are dead. She would probably be perfectly happy if I turned her loose on the moor and she never saw another human again. I love this mare so much and she is my responsibility - she would never hurt another soul, something has happened to her in the past which has I cannot work out but it seems to haunt her and as she gets older it sees to get worse, even, as I mentioned, she has a very easy, relaxed life with no obvious stresses at all. Every time I ride her which is about once a week to hack out with my daughter and pony I end feeling like the cruelest person in the world as she acts like I am being exactly that. I need a horse to ride out with daughter but Ijust feel that she is saying stop. It would be easy to say oh just retire her, let her be etc, bring in a third horse for mebut I just don't know. I can't afford three horses, in time or money really but could do it. She has often had long periods of time off work (if the 1-3 times counts as work). I have increased the work - hacking, schooling, forest rides, shows - but she never changes in her attitude.
I would never sell her because I don't want her to end up in wrong hands as a ridden horse. She would be a good companion horse as a very good doer and doesn't need (read: want) any attention but I am not sure she would be any happierh anywhere else. How do you know what to do for best? Sometimes I think maybe she is having some massive inner turmoil or low grade pain that she doesn't show and maybe I should put her out of her misery because that is what she looks like she is in. I am not sure what advice or feed back I am looking for, maybe other people have experienced depressed horses like this? It's utterly soul destroying looking after such a miserable horse. We have had other ponies and horses who are great characters and seem very happy with their lives but this poor soul just doesn't want to be happy...
I have posted about my 17 yr old tbx 15.1hh mare before - she is amazingly gentle but for no reason (in the last 6 years) she is increasingly nervous and shy. I have only ever treated her with kindness. She shows no personality or interest in life other than food. She doesn't have any vices and objects to nothing and tolerates everything. Out hacking she plods along ears slumped but panics quickly, schooling or just moing she gets on with it but flaps her bottom lip constantly. She has a lovely life with no stress, friends, warmth, regular vet checks and Physio but she acts like she has given up/doesn't care. She freaks if you touch her ears and no amount of careful handling or densistising has changed this in 6yrs.
She was recently diagnosed with cushings and has been on pergolide for about 4 weeks. I was warned about a depression this drug caused but nothing has changed, she is neither happier or worse. She has an increasingly sway back so her ridden days are limited. She isn't a happy horse compared to most other horses I know. She will just stand tied up looking utterly dejected whilst being groomed or if just being left. She isn't in any marked pain that a Physio or vet can find but I hate seeing her like that - her eyes are dead. She would probably be perfectly happy if I turned her loose on the moor and she never saw another human again. I love this mare so much and she is my responsibility - she would never hurt another soul, something has happened to her in the past which has I cannot work out but it seems to haunt her and as she gets older it sees to get worse, even, as I mentioned, she has a very easy, relaxed life with no obvious stresses at all. Every time I ride her which is about once a week to hack out with my daughter and pony I end feeling like the cruelest person in the world as she acts like I am being exactly that. I need a horse to ride out with daughter but Ijust feel that she is saying stop. It would be easy to say oh just retire her, let her be etc, bring in a third horse for mebut I just don't know. I can't afford three horses, in time or money really but could do it. She has often had long periods of time off work (if the 1-3 times counts as work). I have increased the work - hacking, schooling, forest rides, shows - but she never changes in her attitude.
I would never sell her because I don't want her to end up in wrong hands as a ridden horse. She would be a good companion horse as a very good doer and doesn't need (read: want) any attention but I am not sure she would be any happierh anywhere else. How do you know what to do for best? Sometimes I think maybe she is having some massive inner turmoil or low grade pain that she doesn't show and maybe I should put her out of her misery because that is what she looks like she is in. I am not sure what advice or feed back I am looking for, maybe other people have experienced depressed horses like this? It's utterly soul destroying looking after such a miserable horse. We have had other ponies and horses who are great characters and seem very happy with their lives but this poor soul just doesn't want to be happy...