Digital Angel How are you

Oh wow goodness me!!!! I am so surprised and touched to see this thread!!! You really are all awesome you know that!!

Yes i did indeed go to the hunt ball and i paid for it all weekend! Found a lovely floor length dress and got quite, quite steaming!
The drive home the next day ( 3+ hours ) , was quite painful haha!

Still trying hard not to think about Damien and everything that happened. Ive decided im not going to get another for a while, im just too hurt about it. My PSD boy hasnt got the best prognosis in the world but you never know, horses can surprise us sometimes! Im having a friend coming instead to take the stable, she said i could ride her horse once or twice a week if i wanted to ( sjer, currently jumping fox )

I got on my old boy last week too, and he felt amazing, a lot better than he has in months and that really healed me. I know hes not up for the level of work i want to do but he and i have a bond that i just cant explain and for the first time in ages i didnt feel guilty riding him.

I did post on facebook on the dodgy dealers ( used to be epona stars i believe ) about what happened, had a few silly replies but lots of support. Ive heard nothing at all from the breeders and i dont expect to. Im still unsure about taking it further. I havent decided. Some days i get really angry about it.

In little ways i miss him. He certainly was cute. But im 99% sure there was something not right in his head.

I never thought this would happen to me. Ive always been able to fix horses.. i still feel like i failed him in a way but i know logically that i did the best thing for him.
 
Just about to run out the door, and saw this - you certainly DID NOT fail that horse, you gave him the best chance ever, and did the right thing for him. It's not your fault that he had a possible tumour.

HUGE ((( hugs ))) DA xxxx
 
Thanks for update. Glad you had a good time at the ball. Also glad you got on your old boy and enjoyed the experience. You must remember you didn't fail the horse you did the best thing for him and an honourable thing. IMHO I don't think you get any response from breeders. He was very lucky he found you. Chin up hun and we all here for you
 
Good to hear from you DA. You certainly did not fail that poor horse, quite the opposite, and you may have saved someone from getting seriously hurt or worse. We all know who the villains are in this story.

You will move on to your next horse when you are ready, good for you for not rushing in to anything. There are so many cheap horses out there it is always a temptation.

Wishing you all the best.
 
Thank you !!! ive now learned that a so called cheap horse may not be so cheap after all! There has been SO MANY awesome people who have sent PM's, offered to help with cost of euthanization, offers of horses for loan, sale and even free and that is so kind and generous. i think every one on here should be very proud of themselves and big pat on the back. it helped me immensely with my decision and i still think it was the right one.

http://www.horseandhound.co.uk/news...2-2013&utm_medium=email&utm_source=newsletter

read that today in the newsletter. my thoughts are with the owners.
 
I too think it was the right choice. And yes you will feel guilty for doing it but it's nothing to the guilt you'd feel when he did it again, especially given the damage he'd already done - if he had trampled someone in his mad flight that would have been even worse.
 
You deserve a badge of courage for the way you handled this awful situation. You did the right thing and it's just a crying shame that the breeder did not step in......... the least they could do now is send you an apology. Any decent breeder would have taken the poor horse straight back. Don't beat yourself up, this was the only humane outcome, take your time and try some chill out time (though the Hunt Ball sounded great!!!!!). Chin up and carry on we all support you.
 
So glad you saw this thread and gave an update. You definitely didn't fail this horse. You did the best thing by him, cant believe the breeder hasn't even apologized!
glad your old boy is feeling good x
 
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