Do you ever have days when you wonder what you are doing?

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Gingerwitch

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I have 3 horses, my choice, but do you ever get a day,when you stand in the middle of your stable and want to ball your eyes out? you are tired, you hurt from various injuries and strains, the yo is being not very nice to anyone, the fields are knee deep in mud, you have been left to get x number of horses in for so called friends whom are sitting at home or in the pub, you have not ridden and someone happens to say the wrong thing and you think I AM PAYING TO FEEL LIKE THIS !!!! AGGHHHHHH.

Then the neddy comes up to you, and makes those big cow eyes at you and points his/her belly/neck/ears at you in that "scratch me please" manner and you think - yep if the people would leave me alone i would be fine.
 
Yes, I know the exact feeling. I think the rain and seeming constant darkness doesn't help. Things always seem better when the sun is shining - though, don't know when that will next happen!
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oh yes esp at the moment, I'm feeling quite delicate for various reasons about horses, I have had a good crying session over mins's neck bless her, then picked myself up and got back on with things, I felt a while ago that everyone was taking mickey out of me....incl my current/latest job....was not enjoying being around horses anymore at all...not even mins which is very very sad....but I wont be defeated by getting rid of her instead I am moving her to nice quite friendly yard hopefully...anyway...when I find it.

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Totally, I have 3 horses too, and always have people saying I just need one - but which one! Tiredness aches pains and guilt from spending too much time away from the kids and dragging them down in the dark and cold. But like you I still know why I do it but just can always justify it and wonder in years to come will I regret it!
 
It makes me feel better reading this!
I'm also having appalling time at work, funny how it seems to creep up on you that you have been working with lazy unpleasant people for ages.
However I am damned if I am going to give up my job which I really love for the sake of small minded individuals. And also I need to be able to fund keeping my lovely new horse, whom ,having got through first couple of months beautifully, is now testing the waters and telling everyone he is now fitter and more important than when he arrived. Children or horses? Having got both, I'm not sure which are more difficult at the moment!
 
yes, my best horse is injured at the moment so the 4yr old has had to grow up a bit and work for a living. After pampering injured horse and giving special healing kisses i took 'the mad grey girl' as she is affectionately known out to the flooded school where she performed like a superstar. I came back to the stables on cloud 9 and started to brush her off but when i got to combing her mane she exploded, pinning me with all her weight to the stabe wall and would not budge!!! i have mashed my hand up and just felt generally crap, once she got off me i shouted thats the last time i'm nice to you! and flounced out of the stable. It did make me feel a little better slamming the door on the way! she just glared at me. i swear she thinks she owns me! Bloody horses!!!!
 
oh yes , most days !!! work , family , rain , wind, mud !!! raaaagghh !
when we are feeling rubbish and down and we wonder why we bother ??!!! its so rewarding and lovely when we get love back from our horsies tho!!
have a good rant or a cry and then u feel better and can make positive changes !! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
 
yes, definately, infact just yesterday!!! Got to the yard, where i have my horse, my 6 yr old daughter has her pony, and my best friend has the other 10 horses. Her baby is poorly in hospital so i was doing the whole yard for her....i don't mind doing this at all and did offer, but it was a combination of awful rain and squally gale force wind, impossible foals, being dragged and bitten by said foals, daughter then getting trampled by a broodmare she was trying to turn out, then daughter falling head first into huge puddle and getting soaked, knackering my back mucking out 11 stables, carrying huge haynets and lugging trugs of water. By the time all that was done me and my little girl were so wet and muddy and she was shivering with cold. It was raining so hard we decided not to ride. My mare has hardly done anything in the last few weeks and i'm sure she will be a nightmare after the time off and i had really wanted to take her for a blast on the gallops this weekend to get rid of some of her pent up energy and i stood there thinking why the hell am i doing all this??? Then my lovely mare came ambling over to the fence and started blowing in my ear and nibbling my hair, and everything was ok again. I often feel like this in winter, such hard work and half the time not much riding, but last night i sat with a glass of wine and looked through all the pics i have of the summer when we had such a blast spending every day with the horses, having picnics and bbqs at the yard, and felt much better about the whole thing.
 
I know what you all mean! It's been cold, wet and windy, the mud is everywhere, I slide down the field trying to stay upright with Tawny looking at me like i'm either drunk or pooped myself! I have to drag my children up there in the afternoon which always makes me feel guilty. I've had vet bill after vet bill this year and it's seemed like at the end of every month i've had a bill on the doorstep. The dark evenings aren't helping as you have to try and cram your already manic life into the daylight hours.
But I wouldn't change my life despite it's complications! And I need to tell myself everyday how lucky I am to have what I have
 
yes I know what you mean. When my confidence is at an all time low, my horse keeps hurting himself in field on top of all his other injuries, I'm tired, sooooooooooooooooooo broke and all he does is try to bite and kick me all the time... it does kind of get to you.

But strangely wouldnt swap it for the world. makes you wonder if your insane sometimes :-) but your right... all they have to do is look at you and all is forgiven! think i really would be insane without them
 
Trust me on this. It could be a lot worse. When you look at the empty stable because the best horse you ever had has gone,and you keep stopping at the carrots in tescos and realise there is no one to buy them for.I would give anything to have even the worst day back again.So hug your horses and count your blessings. these wonderfull creatures are only with us for a while .
 
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Trust me on this. It could be a lot worse. When you look at the empty stable because the best horse you ever had has gone,and you keep stopping at the carrots in tescos and realise there is no one to buy them for.I would give anything to have even the worst day back again.So hug your horses and count your blessings. these wonderfull creatures are only with us for a while .

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Hear hear.
I have days when I wish I'd never got involved with the bl@@dy things and I'd give it up in a heartbeat; I've come in from riding in tears of frustration with the "horse for sale" ad written in my head (I've even picked the photo); but I'm incredibly grateful for every day I've got Dylan ... my first one was pts at 4 and I still feel I never fully appreciated the short time I had with him.
 
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