AshTay
Well-Known Member
I think in cases like this, each horse is different. I made the opposite choice to the new livery and I am not sure it was the right one.
With my mare it again behavioral, rather than physical, issues which became limiting. I stopped competing, I stopped hacking out in company, I stopped enjoying riding and eventually she became a paddock ornament. She spent years in the field and in this time I spent thousands on vet bills because she'd constantly injure herself and she was subject to so many insurance exclusions. I still had to stress about feed, teeth, feet, worming, etc.
Physically she was fine and because there was no clear cut reason to put her down, I didn't. I couldn't justify it and despite her disastrous personality, I really loved that horse.
I hardly rode at all in the last few years and I missed it terribly. Eventually my mare had the inevitable catastrophic injury and after she went, I felt so lost. It suddenly felt as though I'd wasted so many years. I'd lost touch with the horse world, I was out of it. It's actually really hard to go back to riding when you've been out of the loop for so long.
It's been nearly a year now, I've only ridden once in that time. My position was rubbish, I was less confident, my muscles ached the next day. To be honest, I felt like I didn't really belong. For a child who grew up only feeling truly at home in the saddle, who dreamed of riding at Olympia and was convinced she'd never "out grow" horses, it's really sad.
I feel for you. x
I have a field ornament who is such because of behavioural issues. I am very lucky that I can also afford my fab little ridden mare to keep me sane.
Don't give up - find a riding school or a share. Everyone's muscles ache if they've not ridden for a few days. You only need to feel you belong with yourself and the horse. Please try again. x