LaurenBay
Well-Known Member
I hope I don't come accross as selfish or cold hearted in this post.
But latley I have lost all confidence and motivation to do anything. It doesn't help that Ruby has started being incredibly naughty when being ridden. She has also started being naughty on the ground. Some days shes fine, others she is a horror. I still like going to the yard, I do enjoy seeing her. But when she is being a PITA I just can't bear to even be with her. She is hacking out now and is sound. She is struggling in the school still. So I am unable to lunge/school/long rein to give her any extra exercise. I would love to school and have lessons again and even jump. But she just can't do it. I'm not sure if its her stifle or something else. She has had pysio and vet out before anyone says anything. She is insured, but not on one hind (stifle injury) and I can't afford for her to have scans done right now (which vet says is next step) I have already spent over £1000 trying to get to the bottom of it. The other leg would be fine as obviously its covered by my insurance.
I sometimes feel very envious of everyone elses Horses. Because they seem to have very straight forward Horses (I know this isn't the case with everyone) but it just hasn't worked out for me. She has a stifle injury, mild COPD, she has only been hacked in the last 2 years, she is a spooky hack too. In the summer, she was lovely. I was riding almost daily and was trotting and cantering. Now I can barely trot as she is so forward going and full of energy. She gets daily turnout, however she is kept on individual turnout (I have asked to switch but YO won't let me) she is fed adlib soaked hay (for the COPD) and Fast Fibre. Its all become such a hassle. I can't ride, when I do pluck up the courage too, she mucks about (I have always been a nervy rider, she has always looked after me) shes trashing her fencing, mucking about on the ground. I have a confident sharer who hacks out twice a week.
I have tried to find grass livery near me and having no luck. Everywhere is clay soil round here, so hardly anyone has 24/7 turnout (the nearest place is 40 minutes away!) This is the first winter at this yard, so perhaps she just isn't settling there. Last winter, I could let a toddler lead her, this winter she is mostly good, but when in a mood, bucks and rears up! I am confident on the ground, but still isn't fun dealing with her.
It's very hard to write and admit, but I don't think she is right for me
. However due to her problems I have listed, I could never just sell her on. I don't think there would be a market for her. If she was sound, I would have probably put her up for sale already. Although in the summer I love riding her, I feel very confident with her and we got on so well. She was living out with a herd then. No hard feed.
Perhaps this is just the wrong yard for her, I do feel she would be better with other Horses as she is a very socialble Horse. Perhaps she just has all this extra energy that she would usually use up playing with the other Horses. She has broken out her field 4 times now (she has never ever done this before, she has always been respectful of fencing) I am still very close with my old YO. She was very understanding and said I could go back whenever I wanted, even if its just to socialize her and move on again (spoke to her Monday, she was shocked at Ruby's behaviour as she was so laid back)
I just feel so confused and down about it all. On one hand I do love her, in the summer I love riding her, on the other hand, once her turnout is restricted she has all this extra energy which I just can't deal with. Its like she is 2 different Horses. One I love, one I don't. Don't get me wrong, I do still provide everything for her, she is seen too twice or threee times a day, sees the farrier reguarly, nice stable with nice bedding, good quality hay etc.
Smarties if you got this far! I'm sure sure what I want anyone to say, it just helps to write it all down.
But latley I have lost all confidence and motivation to do anything. It doesn't help that Ruby has started being incredibly naughty when being ridden. She has also started being naughty on the ground. Some days shes fine, others she is a horror. I still like going to the yard, I do enjoy seeing her. But when she is being a PITA I just can't bear to even be with her. She is hacking out now and is sound. She is struggling in the school still. So I am unable to lunge/school/long rein to give her any extra exercise. I would love to school and have lessons again and even jump. But she just can't do it. I'm not sure if its her stifle or something else. She has had pysio and vet out before anyone says anything. She is insured, but not on one hind (stifle injury) and I can't afford for her to have scans done right now (which vet says is next step) I have already spent over £1000 trying to get to the bottom of it. The other leg would be fine as obviously its covered by my insurance.
I sometimes feel very envious of everyone elses Horses. Because they seem to have very straight forward Horses (I know this isn't the case with everyone) but it just hasn't worked out for me. She has a stifle injury, mild COPD, she has only been hacked in the last 2 years, she is a spooky hack too. In the summer, she was lovely. I was riding almost daily and was trotting and cantering. Now I can barely trot as she is so forward going and full of energy. She gets daily turnout, however she is kept on individual turnout (I have asked to switch but YO won't let me) she is fed adlib soaked hay (for the COPD) and Fast Fibre. Its all become such a hassle. I can't ride, when I do pluck up the courage too, she mucks about (I have always been a nervy rider, she has always looked after me) shes trashing her fencing, mucking about on the ground. I have a confident sharer who hacks out twice a week.
I have tried to find grass livery near me and having no luck. Everywhere is clay soil round here, so hardly anyone has 24/7 turnout (the nearest place is 40 minutes away!) This is the first winter at this yard, so perhaps she just isn't settling there. Last winter, I could let a toddler lead her, this winter she is mostly good, but when in a mood, bucks and rears up! I am confident on the ground, but still isn't fun dealing with her.
It's very hard to write and admit, but I don't think she is right for me
. However due to her problems I have listed, I could never just sell her on. I don't think there would be a market for her. If she was sound, I would have probably put her up for sale already. Although in the summer I love riding her, I feel very confident with her and we got on so well. She was living out with a herd then. No hard feed. Perhaps this is just the wrong yard for her, I do feel she would be better with other Horses as she is a very socialble Horse. Perhaps she just has all this extra energy that she would usually use up playing with the other Horses. She has broken out her field 4 times now (she has never ever done this before, she has always been respectful of fencing) I am still very close with my old YO. She was very understanding and said I could go back whenever I wanted, even if its just to socialize her and move on again (spoke to her Monday, she was shocked at Ruby's behaviour as she was so laid back)
I just feel so confused and down about it all. On one hand I do love her, in the summer I love riding her, on the other hand, once her turnout is restricted she has all this extra energy which I just can't deal with. Its like she is 2 different Horses. One I love, one I don't. Don't get me wrong, I do still provide everything for her, she is seen too twice or threee times a day, sees the farrier reguarly, nice stable with nice bedding, good quality hay etc.
Smarties if you got this far! I'm sure sure what I want anyone to say, it just helps to write it all down.
) offer decent amounts of turnout. And the concept of a decent surface seems to have missed most of Essex - I can't remember the last time I saw a normal yard with a surface that wasn't a foot deep. I hope you find a solution.