Hedwards
Well-Known Member
So i've posted before about having problems with my gelding Mickey when i bought him (ulcers), getting over them and everything being hunky dory...
I've had another confidence crash, and i dont know what to do... He was off work due to the rubbish weather, and then a hoof abcess that took an age to pop. I'm terrified that his ulcers are back (although nothing to suggest they are - its just a mental block from me) and i have no confidence to get on him at all. I'm a bridesmaid next week, so dont want to risk getting on him before then incase something does happen - whcih is not like the old me at all (plus the bride would kill me if i injured or maimed myself). But i just dont know what to do, I'm having confidence issues in all areas of my life at the moment, and i guess i'm just embarrassed to admit i'm scared to ride my own horse, only ride though, i'm happy to handle him and his fieldmate day to day. I'm not really sure the point of this post, just needed to get it off my chest, I feel like a total failure and i'm expecting the worst from him, every time he twitches or has a little reaction to me touching behind his front leg i convince myself he's ulcery again.
I had my very good friend and RI help me last time after the ulcers and a couple of bad falls, but i'm so embarrassed as nothing has really happened, and Mickey hasnt done anything this time to cause it... kick up the bum/words of wisdom etc gratefully recieved...
I've had another confidence crash, and i dont know what to do... He was off work due to the rubbish weather, and then a hoof abcess that took an age to pop. I'm terrified that his ulcers are back (although nothing to suggest they are - its just a mental block from me) and i have no confidence to get on him at all. I'm a bridesmaid next week, so dont want to risk getting on him before then incase something does happen - whcih is not like the old me at all (plus the bride would kill me if i injured or maimed myself). But i just dont know what to do, I'm having confidence issues in all areas of my life at the moment, and i guess i'm just embarrassed to admit i'm scared to ride my own horse, only ride though, i'm happy to handle him and his fieldmate day to day. I'm not really sure the point of this post, just needed to get it off my chest, I feel like a total failure and i'm expecting the worst from him, every time he twitches or has a little reaction to me touching behind his front leg i convince myself he's ulcery again.
I had my very good friend and RI help me last time after the ulcers and a couple of bad falls, but i'm so embarrassed as nothing has really happened, and Mickey hasnt done anything this time to cause it... kick up the bum/words of wisdom etc gratefully recieved...