Feeling miserable at the moment. (Long)

[kippen64]

Feel miserable at the moment because I miss my horses. I wish there was somewhere nearby where I could keep my pony. Hank is not so important because he loves the retirement farm and he is retired due to unsoundness. There isn't anywhere I can keep Kippen because his care needs are too specific and my budget is too limited. So they continue to be both beautifully looked after at a price I can afford at the retirement farm.

The other reason I feel wretched is because of my weight. My case manager at my job network agency got it into his head that because I am a horse person, that I should apply for the track work rider/stablehand position they are having trouble filling. I said that I didn't have my track work rider's permit and that I am too heavy. Was told that they would finance the permit and refused to believe that I am too heavy. I could afford to lose 9kg and would need to lose 15kg to be a track work rider. Was told repeatedly that my attitude is negative and that my refusal to believe that I can ride track work is proof that I am not trying hard enough at finding a job.

Having said over and over that I am too heavy has made me feel wretched about the extra 9kg that I carry. It's as though by not being whip like in build, I have committed a crime of some sort.

 

[kippen64]

Taking the advice of another person here and leaving. Goodbye.

 

[rema]

Taking the advice of another person here and leaving. Goodbye.

Random...well that's HHO for you!.

 

[Phoebe]

Kippen.... Wanted to pm but my daft phone won't let me. I'm happy to chat and help you re your weight...drop me a pm and try not to stress....it's just your own insecurities being shoved in your face x

 

[touchstone]

Kippen, I thought that you were considering moving your Highland to a new livery local to you?

What exactly are his care needs that are so specific? I understood that you didn't want to move him because there were no field shelters, but to be honest a Highland will manage fine if provided with a light rug if needed, and I can't imagine that Australia has much worse weather than the Highlands of Scotland.

If I were you I'd try your best to get your pony to where you can actually work with it and ride it, it will do both of you good and probably get you to lose weight wothout even thinking about it.

Don't look for the negatives in your situation, but try to see any positives that you can work with.

 

[ausipaliboi]

Hey Kippen, pm me when you get back on line, happy to chat with you via email off the forum if you would prefer.