Cherrydan
Well-Known Member
Hi Everyone,
I am writing this post as a very tired and emotionally drained lover of horses....I will get to the point.
I have a son with Autism and a baby girl, I also have a lovely horse too. My old ned has navicular, and i have very little time available to do any riding, but he gives me a peaceful moment on very lonely days. I ask very little of him and I have probably let him off more than i should have done, nothing major, but I havent been a confident leader, due to a previous ex racer putting me in hospital
I have had my horse over 3 years now, he is always good, until today.
I got a new bridle, and from the top of his field he heard the bit clanking, however he thought i had food, so came down to investigate. I said hello, and tried to put his headcollar on, to bring him to better ground as to try the bridle on. Before I knew it, he turned, ran and bucked out (really out of character)...I didnt react or move, was just shocked. He galloped away (he is in no pain) farting behind him. So, i felt betrayed and down, just left him to it. I didnt have a lot of time to go looking for him in the top field. Today, i feel like just pts as i have enough on my plate, icant guarantee his safety/home due to navicular, but i cant deal with more negatives, im worndown. I love horses, i know im probably in a lot if peoples bad books for even considering pts, but i have nothing left to give, my confidence isnt that great (if you put me on a rs horse, i am fine), its the whole own horse thing. I feel like a fraud. So, sigh, thats where im at. What do you think is best. (please dont be nasty, i am really struggling with everything....what would life be like without my horse...x
I am writing this post as a very tired and emotionally drained lover of horses....I will get to the point.
I have a son with Autism and a baby girl, I also have a lovely horse too. My old ned has navicular, and i have very little time available to do any riding, but he gives me a peaceful moment on very lonely days. I ask very little of him and I have probably let him off more than i should have done, nothing major, but I havent been a confident leader, due to a previous ex racer putting me in hospital
I have had my horse over 3 years now, he is always good, until today.
I got a new bridle, and from the top of his field he heard the bit clanking, however he thought i had food, so came down to investigate. I said hello, and tried to put his headcollar on, to bring him to better ground as to try the bridle on. Before I knew it, he turned, ran and bucked out (really out of character)...I didnt react or move, was just shocked. He galloped away (he is in no pain) farting behind him. So, i felt betrayed and down, just left him to it. I didnt have a lot of time to go looking for him in the top field. Today, i feel like just pts as i have enough on my plate, icant guarantee his safety/home due to navicular, but i cant deal with more negatives, im worndown. I love horses, i know im probably in a lot if peoples bad books for even considering pts, but i have nothing left to give, my confidence isnt that great (if you put me on a rs horse, i am fine), its the whole own horse thing. I feel like a fraud. So, sigh, thats where im at. What do you think is best. (please dont be nasty, i am really struggling with everything....what would life be like without my horse...x