HARDEST DECISION EVER....

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After a week of intensive care treatment and still no real positive signs of recovery, I made the most hardest decision ever in my life yesterday to end the pain and suffering in my boy, I left work at 2.30pm and went straight to the vets to see a blank looking bay geld stood in the corner of the stable with the most enourmous amounts of swelling to his body that was justifiably the right time to let my gorgeous boy sleep in peace, so I led him out to the horrid area - although he enjoyed it it was full of straw as a laminitic this was something he certainly wasn't allowed...so he must have thought he was already in heaven....he ate a bucket of grass and apple and chomped away at the straw although he was barely standing at this point, my husband and i were with him right the way through this ordeal as he lay there with straw hanging out of his mouth - which made me smile, i gave him such a huge hug and strokes, before the injection was given I thanked him for all the years we had together and told him again and again that i loved him and i was sorry....
Strangly i felt a sigh of relief to know he was free from pain and was sleeping peacefully...
I will be getting him back in a casket....so i know he'll always be with me.
I am just so numb and lost without my special boy around.
Thank you for all the support and warm wishes you gave us.
 
Oh gosh that brought a tear to my eye
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Massive hugs for you hun ((((((hugs)))))) x
 
What a wonderful parting gift you have given your boy. It must be so awful but as the others have said, I'm sure he would thank you if he could.

big hugs xxxxx
 
Sorry to hear this but I'm sure he'd be thanking you for stopping the pain; oh how I wish every owner was as unselfish as you have been.
Cherish your lovely memories of your time together, perhaps you could plant a tree or something in his memory.
 
From some who has been throught a very similar situation recently, I empathise completely with you. I also understand that feeling of realeasement. When they tell you Its the right time, you know you have to stop them begging you. They give you to much to make them beg and this is the final and most passionate present you can give them.

Releif in Teds face told me I had done the right thing, and Im sure you saw this too. If you ever need to talk about it (I kow you will at some point as you wil keep relaying it in your mind) I am here, and I could do with the company sometimes!

Hes up there now, free, in no pain, restored and running with the angels.

Lou x
 
Thank you for all your lovely words of wisdom, I know I have made the right choice seeing him suffer was just to much to bear, i couldn't settle at work esp after speaking with the vets that morning, I guess i hoped that he would pull through this situation, but sadly due to his age of 21 I guess his body was telling me to let him go...to which I did!
My other little mare has been very quite too she's a 23yro arab x welsh who is usually sooo hyper and strong...she keeps calling out for him and watching all the other horses and seeing if he will be coming back, at this time I am finding it extreamly difficult to deal with esp as I have to go past his empty stable to see her, I am thinking about moving her to a new yard although the one i am at is wonderful and so is everyone there, they have been very supportive, but the pain is just too much for me, I can't ever see myself there without him now....but i don't want to upset my mare by doing the wrong thing as i have to be strong for her too.
Thanks again for the support by god i need it right now, he really was a very special friend to me and my husband.
 
Having been where you are now a few weeks ago you have my deepest sympathy.

You will be able to look back soon and smile at the memories and friendship that you shared.
 
Don't rush in to any decisions about moving yards - especially for your mare's sake.

We do get over these things, and actually become comforted by every day reminders of the horses we've lost.

I walk through the field that my mare was put down in every day at the moment, and think of her every single time. Not with regret, but just the memory of her.
 
I was so sorry to read your very moving post. It's a horrid horrid time, but I really would hold on for a bit about moving yards. When I lost my old boy 4 years ago I actually found the continuity of being at the same yard with everyone and everything that he had known still in place immensely helpful. I sort of felt he was just round the corner. To move your mare, who will be grieving herself, to a strange environment just seems to me to be more upheaval and potential unhappiness than you need.

Many condolences. You sent him on his way to horsey heaven with dignity and peace when he asked you. Well done.
 
So sorry (((hugs))).
It is a terrible decision to make but knowing you have done the right thing is a consolation of sorts.
He went knowing he was loved.x
 
The hardest decision but the right one. As everyone else has said, don't be too hasty about moving yards. As you say, the people there have been very supportive, you don't want to upset your other horse when she is probably feeling insecure at this moment. Leave things as they are for now, time is a great healer, I truly believe that, you will find the strength to walk past the empty stable. Hope you feel a little better soon.xx
 
i am so very sorry for your loss. I know what you mean about making the desission it is horrible i know but we have to do it for them some times!XX
 
Im sitting here having a little grissle after reading you lost your horse as im going throught a diff situation with mine and i fear if she doesnt stay improved it may be one i have make.

I know right now you must be totally devastead and it must be hard to even type but i do think its brave and at least we can do something for them when we love them so much.

Its evey owners worst nightmare but i feel from what you said there wasnt really a desion to be made as such as he was suffering.

love and hugs xx
 
I know nothing of your story but reading your post brought a tear to my eye! I'm so sorry for your loss, please hold out as best you can, it will get easier in time. I have never been through what you have just been through; I loaned my last horse and phoned and after I gave her back due to financial difficulties, I phoned the yard to see how she was doing and was told she had gone. That was hard enough so i can only imagine what you're going through. All my thoughts are with you and your mare. Take comfort in her presence, they are great comforters in times of need
 
I'm another who has said the final goodbye to dear friends. Both times I called it a day on their behalf and understand fully everything you have said and felt. The lump in my throat is back again as I acknowledge your bravery and selflessness at putting his comfort before your pain.

May he rest in peace now


Huge hugs x
 
I'm so sorry, it's difficult to let them go but at least he is out of pain. As to moving yards, I lost my horse but stayed on the same yard and although at times it was difficult I still used to feel her around me and she was put to sleep and buried there. In a way I found it comforting. Big hugs to you xx
 
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