Help me I am going mad

[jenbleep]

Lately I have noticed that I am becoming more of a perfectionist - some may argue that that is a good thing, but it is actually starting to drive me a little insane

Before I moved to Bournemouth I used to ride out for a friend, we would just hack and have so much fun - sure I would school and I would have lessons, but I was more focused on having a good time and the horse being happy and having fun too

(I know, horses aren't humans and they think that galloping round the field with their mates is fun, but you get what I mean

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But over the past year I have been on a quest to get Frankie working correctly, building up his topline and me correcting my position. It has taken me a year to jump Frankie becuase I wanted to sort his flatwork first, which I know makes sense, but I think I am a bit obsessed by it all now

I have been hacking Frankie out as well, which he finds oh so exciting (now he has moved he does find it a bit scary lol) but even then I am like 'oh I must get him walking out correctly' or 'I hope I don't ruin his mouth when he gets strong' God I sound like a right barrel of laughs don't I?!

I am leaving Frankie in three weeks, and now I am worried that I will forget everything I have learnt, and go back to being a slob in the saddle

I even study all our photos, like 'he isn't working correctly' or 'I am leaning forward......' And I don't like people watching me ride because I am worried about what they will say.......grrrrrrr

Does anyone else get like this?

Can someone give me a slap as well please

 

[Ezme]

At least your noticing your doing it! If you wern't, that'd be a problem! Theres nothing wrong with trying to better yourself, seems like you know how to have fun too!

 

[DuckToller]

Sounds great to me - think more people should ride well every day and try to improve horse and themselves! Give yourself a pat on the back and don't fret about any people watching. Chances are they are envious that your horse is going so well.

 

[jenbleep]

I get stage fright!

I just don't want to get too stressed about it all, and think everything has to be perfect - because that will drive me nuts

I think it's a running joke on the yard now