Baileysno1
Well-Known Member
I have been seriously down since my little escapade down under, it all happened so quickly and its been turmoil ever since. Firstly after elation of being home, the reality that our house was sold, I had no job, horse and OH still focused on emigrating I don't think I've ever cried so much. So now our little bungalow is gone I'm renting at a friends and hes at his parents, I'm riding 4 or 5 times a week but I'm seriously missing the routine with my own two boys, it was intense having 2 horses on DIY and working full time and although I'm temping and the jobs full on, I just don't know what to do with myself when I'm nnot a work, it is just so so frustrating. I feel in total limbo it'll be another month at least till OH goes out to oz and I've said I won't go till hes got some kind of accomodation (once bitten and all that!) so it'll be beginning of June till I go at the earliest and even then what if its horrible, and I've wasted a British summer with no horse.
And missing Ryu is just awful, its like someone has died, I know that will sound daramatic but I can't even bear it if people mention him and if I look a photos I just sob!
Anyway just needed to get that off my chest!
And missing Ryu is just awful, its like someone has died, I know that will sound daramatic but I can't even bear it if people mention him and if I look a photos I just sob!
Anyway just needed to get that off my chest!