I am consumed with guilt

sam72431

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Very very long story short following on from some very mild intermittent lameness my horse was booked in for annular ligament surgery and this was performed 12 weeks ago.

Surgeon shocked to find two ddft tears torn manica flexoria as well so removed manica did the desmotomy and debrided ddft. I was told long rest period 50/50 chance of being ridden etc.

Came home pretty sound and all fine, reaction to stitches which were removed early. Came sound again and then doing hand grazing on vets advice fine and had around 2-3 weeks no issues started reducing danillon on vet advice. Leg blew up in loads of pain as in agony leg boiling. Back up on danillon which made no difference after 1.5 she went back to the hospital for a week.

She had cellulitis and tendon sheath also inflammed but inconclusive if the tendon sheath was septic as they couldn't get a sample. Treated the cellulitis and then took on surgeons advice a calculated risk to do a steroid injection into sheath. This seemed to work and we have been in the clear for injection as this hasn't come back and steroids was 5 weeks ago which is when she came home again.

We had about 2-3 weeks completely sound with no painkiller and was just starting to do in hand walking when one morning she shot back (she is super fresh) the leg then swelled up and she got sore again after a few days so have been on danillon twice a day for a week. We then tried to take her off again over the weekend but she got sore unfortunately I was away so unsure just how sore! She's had shoes off ever since op as not been sound enough to stand on leg for long enough.

Farrier came today and I decided to go ahead with it as she was looking fairly comfortable again since continueing the danillon. Well I felt so guilty Farrier was very very kind and patient but you could see it hurt to weight bear on leg to get other leg done! I cold hosed her leg afterwards and in fairness she walked back in ok. Tonight I took her out for walk again and although stiff she was walking ok I iced her legs as well to keep inflammation down.

I am just feeling constantly guilty if I'm doing right thing. I speak to vet every day and follow his advice to letter but he has said he's not really dealt with a horse with all three injuries at once and not sure if it's normal for her to be up and down like this. She is bright in herself eating and wants to be here but is this fair?! She is only ten and I don't care if she is never ridden again as long as she is happy and pain free but she's been in three months now and it feels like it's never going to be over!

Non horsey bf thinks not fair to keep her in and can't be on painkillers forever (obviously) but vet saying just give her time. Other people saying get a second opinion and also should vet come and do scan to check nothing underlying since she went backwards last week?! I'm at my wit's end so any help much appreciated!
 
I have no advice to give, only sympathy. It's horrible when you're following vet's instructions but not seeing improvement.
 
Thank you for all your kind replies, she seemed happier this morning with the shoes on. She walked out to grass quite happily and the leg seems to of gone down as well which is a good sign. Hoping I can now get her off the danillon and keep her comfy without it. I've had mixed advice, vet says just time don't use gadgets but only other person who I've found that has had a horse with similar used magnetic boots and thinks this helped! I am scared to go against vet but then at same time this particular horse had them and got better! I have got the ice vibe boots but vet said don't risk using the vibe part yet only the ice! I just feel like we have had all the bad luck in the world and she has been a really good patient so apart from other week its not even through her being silly its just been bad luck! I've been so so careful keeping everything clean etc and she got cellulitis!

I don't feel pts is right at this stage when she is bright and full of life but I constantly question if I'm just being selfish?!
 
I would advise, if your horse is going to be a handful leading or turning out, you might want to get a sedative from the vet. I had to do this with my horse who spent 3 months on box rest with collateral ligament damage. Eventually, sedated, he was let out into a grass pen the size of his stable which was gradually increased in size until he was calmer. Otherwise, you will just undo all the good work you have done.
 
I would get the vet back to scan. My horse had surgery on her annular ligament. Initial recovery time given by vet was an underestimate. He said rehab work under saddle in 6 weeks. She wasn't sound enough to do this for 6 months. i had her rescanned twice and made the surgeon who operated come out and do it. It was very comforting to know there wasn't anything extra to worry about. Not as serious as your horse's injury but I hope that gives you a bit of reassurance. I think vets tend to underestimate recovery/box rest by at least half. The whole thing was very distressing and exhausting as it was never off my mind, so I know how you feel.
 
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