Leo Walker
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And I wasn't going to post, but my OH has gone to work now and I need to put this somewhere. I will apologise now for the typos, I cant see the screen properly for sobbing I know its only sad for us now, but I just cant imagine waking up tomorrow and her not getting up and following me downstairs, or not being on her spot on the sofa :'(
However I've never experienced anything like it with regards to the PTS bit. It was so peaceful and easy and she was genuinely happy to go. I've agonised over this for a few months now and I still had doubts until tonight. I know now that while I'm gutted shes not here anymore and will miss the mad old bat so very, very much, she was ready and it was time.
I rescued her from death row at the pound. She had been overlooked and had reached the PTS deadline as she was so utterly traumatised that she just crammed herself in the corner in terror. I had a fractured spine and could barely walk and definitely wasnt in my right mind but I got an SOS call so went and got her. She was a deeply traumatised dog. She used to wet herself in fear if anyone came in my house. But she came round pretty quickly, mainly thanks to my other dog being so uber cool about her being completely unhinged. Seeing him and his attitude to life and people helped her come round. She still ever completely got over what happened, but on the whole she was a happy dog and easy dog and we had lots of lovely times.
I will never know exactly what happened to her before I got her, but I do know that my poor old girl suffered so very much at the hands of people and I will never be sure if what I did for her was enough to compensate for that. I think if I could have asked her she would have said she was very happy with us and she considered me her safe place. She just wanted to be near me even if she didnt want me fussing over her. I know she loved me above anything else even if she couldnt show it like my other dog
I feel horrifically guilty about the puppy, the timing is all sorts of wrong :'( But we are going to call him Floyd in her memory and he is going to have the life my poor old girl should always have had. No one will EVER hurt him or treat him badly and he will NEVER suffer the horrors she did. No one will ever so much as raise their voice to him. He will have nothing other than positive reinforcement. He wont ever have to be frightened or hurting or cold or hungry. He will have the very best life I can give him.
I know it doesnt cancel out what happened to her before I got her, but I'm sure if I could have talked to her about it she would have been happy that I was giving another dog a lovely life.
RIP Flossie Bitches you mad old bat! I'm glad that you aren't suffering anymore and that your passing was so easy and that you were truly happy again for at least a little bit. I really hope you know how much I will miss you. A little bit of my heart went with you tonight
However I've never experienced anything like it with regards to the PTS bit. It was so peaceful and easy and she was genuinely happy to go. I've agonised over this for a few months now and I still had doubts until tonight. I know now that while I'm gutted shes not here anymore and will miss the mad old bat so very, very much, she was ready and it was time.
I rescued her from death row at the pound. She had been overlooked and had reached the PTS deadline as she was so utterly traumatised that she just crammed herself in the corner in terror. I had a fractured spine and could barely walk and definitely wasnt in my right mind but I got an SOS call so went and got her. She was a deeply traumatised dog. She used to wet herself in fear if anyone came in my house. But she came round pretty quickly, mainly thanks to my other dog being so uber cool about her being completely unhinged. Seeing him and his attitude to life and people helped her come round. She still ever completely got over what happened, but on the whole she was a happy dog and easy dog and we had lots of lovely times.
I will never know exactly what happened to her before I got her, but I do know that my poor old girl suffered so very much at the hands of people and I will never be sure if what I did for her was enough to compensate for that. I think if I could have asked her she would have said she was very happy with us and she considered me her safe place. She just wanted to be near me even if she didnt want me fussing over her. I know she loved me above anything else even if she couldnt show it like my other dog
I feel horrifically guilty about the puppy, the timing is all sorts of wrong :'( But we are going to call him Floyd in her memory and he is going to have the life my poor old girl should always have had. No one will EVER hurt him or treat him badly and he will NEVER suffer the horrors she did. No one will ever so much as raise their voice to him. He will have nothing other than positive reinforcement. He wont ever have to be frightened or hurting or cold or hungry. He will have the very best life I can give him.
I know it doesnt cancel out what happened to her before I got her, but I'm sure if I could have talked to her about it she would have been happy that I was giving another dog a lovely life.
RIP Flossie Bitches you mad old bat! I'm glad that you aren't suffering anymore and that your passing was so easy and that you were truly happy again for at least a little bit. I really hope you know how much I will miss you. A little bit of my heart went with you tonight