I have lost the love of my life

She really was beautiful, you can see all of her character in her eyes.

It is a terrible shock to lose a horse, especially when you are far away from them and cannot be a part of the decision.

I returned from holiday to be met at the airport with the news that the first horse I had bred, an absolute dream of a mare, had been pts when I was away.
I had old horses as well and in a way if it had been one of them I could have taken it. But it was my lovely mare, only 14.
The strange thing was that I did not cry at the time, it was too terrible to contemplate.
It was years and years later that it all came out.

Like you I had plenty of what ifs and whys.
The person looking after her and the vet had to make the decision to pts knowing that I probably would have tried to save her if I had been there.
But I was able to accept that they were there and I was not and in fact only they could make the decision based on what was in front of them.
The vet did an autopsy and she would not have made it.
I am eternally grateful to them both (my friend and the vet) for making the right decision in my absence.
I have a photo of her taken by another friend the day before she died. She looked the picture of health, there was no warning of what was to come.

The special way to remember her will come to you when you are ready.
Your tribute on here has shared how wonderful she was with all of us. We can all recognise a bit of our own horses in her.
My first pony died 18 months ago after spending nearly all his long life with me.
I feel the best tribute I can pay to him is to get another young horse that will benefit from all the things he taught me.
It has taken a while but I am ready now.
RIP April. A truly well loved horse.
 
I am so sorry. I was not with my horse when he had to be put to sleep, as he was at a veterinary hospital quite a long drive away, and he deteriorated very suddenly. I had had him since he was born. I have a portrait of him (which I still talk to, 11 years on) and I had some of his ashes and scattered them in a very special secret place, with a headstone made from a stone off the beach. I raised money in his memory for the Equine Grass Sickness Fund, as EGS proved to be his killer. He was my first horse "all of my own". I have a horse now who is so accident-prone that if he had been my first horse, I think I would have gone mad by now...so I thank my first horse for being my teacher, my friend and the one who showed me you can never give your horse too many hugs. Sending you all my sympathy; your horse was beautiful and looks so happy in your photo. xx
 
Rebelrebel I'm so sorry to hear your story, I know you must have been feeling exactly as I do now, but it is good to know for both of us that the best decision was made when we weren't there. I know I too would have found it almost impossible to make that decision if I thought there was any chance whatsoever of her recovering but I know it was the right thing to do now
Janesomerset that sounds like a beautiful way to honor such a special horse, I am hoping to get a portrait of my favourite picture of her done so I can always see her and know she's there. And thank you she was such a beautiful special mare
 
I've been looking through pictures and have remembered all of our achievements and the amazing times we've had together. I wish I'd taken more but with all things I've always preferred to have the memory than a picture so don't have tons but the ones I do have do make me smile

Sorry for them being huge, had to print screen them from my fb on my iPad

After the last time I rode her ... We had the most incredible jump session and glad my last ride was her doing the thing she absolutely loved to do
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My favourite picture of the two of us
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Doing what she loved more than anything
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And just because I love this picture so incredibly much

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so sorry, such a shock and a reminder that you never know whats round the corner, we lost our lovely hunter last year after only 12 months of having him, we would have kept him forever even if he couldnt have been ridden anymore he was a hero! hes buried in our back field and i often tell him off for being the wrong side of the grass! we have a lovely horse now and a retired oldie but we will never forget him, and talk about him now with such lovely memories which was too hard to do at the start, unfortunately if you have horses for long enough this happens, but im sure none of us would be without. you will never forget, but time will help you move on and a new journey will begin......
 
She looks so like my first horse! The headshot of you and her is stunning - you can see she was a horse who was much loved, and loved you in return.
 
I am so sorry. To loose someone close, whether friend, relative or an animal is devastating, but when its so suddenly like this its such a shock. I know it feels like the bottom has dropped out of your world, but time does ease the pain, and though you never ever ever stop missing them, you will eventualy be able to think of her with smiles rather than tears. Hugs to you and your family at this difficult time.xxx
 
samlovesprilly said:
A picture of my beautiful girl which comes close to summing up what a beautiful soul she was
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what a beautiful girl.


So sorry I know what your going through been through it with the love of my life at xmas.


Not much to say in this situation except thinking of you healing vibes xxx
 
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