I have to sell my pony

I'm a bit calmer now. Finding out something like that in the middle of the night on a Friday is just awful as I could do nothing and my partner works nights so I couldnt even tell any one in person. Its probably a good thing as I was so angry I was shaking, whereas now I am angry but not slightly deranged with it.

I clearly need to go to Moorfields. I'm about 1hr20 mins away so its not even far. I drive 40mins for work at the minute. One tired and bored looking consultant being farmed out to other hopsitals clearly isnt representative of everyone there.

I'm speaking to my GP about an urgent referal on Monday, I'm only giving that until lunchtime as I dont have time to waste with this now. They do a call back system so I should be able to speak to someone and find out if they will do it and if so how long it takes.

If thats not an option I'm going to speak to Moorfields direct and get some advice. If they can get me a private appointment in 48 hours or so then I'll do that, one consultation isnt an issue. Otherwise Monday night when the roads are quieter I'm going to walk myself into eye A&E there.

I cant go about the right eye really as thats been there since Feb, however even through the 80% blindness i have started having flashing lights which is classed as an emergency and almost certainly means the retina is lifting. The left eye is having tiny bleeds on and off and again. Either of those things is enough to legitimately walk in off the street as an emergency.

If they cant do anything, they cant do anything and thats fine but i want to know in detail why not so at least I know.

I didnt want to post any of this thread, I just hoped someone would have some ideas for Bobbie as I couldnt stop crying and shaking and knew I couldnt deal with it myself. As it happens I've got a solution I think I would be fairly happy with via Surbie, but actually thanks to Ambers Echo everything just changed.
 
ozpoz said:
How can anyone be upset over tiny chickens! Twit! Send them to me! I love pekins.
Take it all slowly and methodically.
While I think the RDA is a fabulous organisation, the last one I visited made me feel quite sad for the ponies. (Several had no muscle, were lame and looked unhappy and uncomfortable).
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She would be going as a driving pony, I have the same concerns as you about the riding ponies. The driving bit seems to be a much, much happier life for them
 
sunshine100* said:
Just caught with up with reading all this LW.So sorry to hear about your eyes and the worry about Bobbie. Can we you all crowdfund for you to get you the best private eye surgeon?
I know your concerns about getting the right home -they will be no one good enough, all the work you have done with her,you don't want her going to someone who keeps her cooped up in stable all day.
So one thought I did have and its only a suggestion is putting out with your retired one that way you know where she is and she will be looked after.
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Actually thats a genius idea. I hadnt thought of that. They are talking about getting something to drive as it is. I cant believe I didnt think of that either. Everything just went so horribly wrong, so quickly and I lost my mind for a bit, and didnt think of any of these obvious solutions!

I have never been more glad I posted something in my life
 
Every RDA group is different. It is a pity you are not in my area as I have had a 100% blind driver driving from the bit in full control. His biggest problem was my not allowing his guide dog on the carriage. Those who can see colour follow a tabbard through cones and along tracks. Obstacles are special occaision jobbies but the driver gets to choose the route to take and the runner does that route.

Some RDA driving groups would jump at the chance of a pony like Bobbie and have the skills and time to work her until she is ideal for the job, but not all groups are able to do that.
 
Ditto, how are you getting on? Have you got an appointment at Moorfields?
Re Bobbie I was thinking don't make any rush decisions, but sounds like you've found a solution?
 
I've just had conformation that I've been referred to Moorfields. My GP agrees with me that I need a decent second opinion at this point. Its just taken until today to get to speak to her and that was only over the phone. She has also agreed to see me in person at 12pm so we can talk about how I feel and see if anything can be done. I'm not holding out much hope as its normal to feel like this with what I'm going through. apparently going blind is up there with bereavement.

I've been quite calm for the last few days. I've been painting fences and building a chicken run so its kept me occupied and then I've been utterly knackered and able to sleep a bit more which has helped. Its still awful but I'm not crying hysterically all the time so its a step forward

Bobbie is staying put for now, the kids at the yard fuss her and ride her for me so shes perfectly happy, and now I know theres RDA that only do driving and that she would be suitable, I dont feel like theres an awful relentless pressure to do something NOW anymore.

I didnt really understand that there are levels of blindness until I posted this. I thought blind was blind and that was it, but its not the case at all. So now I'm really hoping even if my sight cant be saved, that I retain enough to see shapes and colours as everything is perfectly manageable then and I can keep Bobbie and get on with my life.
 
That all sounds a bit more positive. I hope with all my heart you can get as good an outcome as possible. I certainly hope the hospital can slow the rate of deterioration to a managable level and you get more years of some sight being blind in one eye is doable and if the other can be treated quickly and without setbacks they should keep it monitored so any changes can be seen, dealt with and prolong the time you have good sight.
 
You have certainly had a very tough time LW. I really hope you retain some sight. I grew up with a girl who was legally blind by about age 15. She could still see shapes and colours and continued riding her horse until her late 20's. Her horse was brilliant, she knew her rider very well and looked after her on all our rides. When the mare passed away my friend stopped riding because she could never replace her. If you can hang onto Bobbie, she may become even more precious to you than she is already. I wish you all the very best.
 
You sound more positive today LW, I'm glad you are managing to keep yourself busy. I really hope you can get a positive outcome from this, and I'm glad you have found a solution for Bobbie if you need it.
 
Thinking of you

Happy to hear that you have a referral and can talk to your GP face to face to discuss everything.

Glad that the pressure has been removed with Bobbie and that you have a back-up plan that will hopefully go unused.

I hope seeing the doctor today helps further. Take care x
 
Been thinking of you too, LW.
Glad to hear there's a bit of positive news for you and you've got an appointment. And that you've been busy making a run for your chicks :)
I really hope it will work out that you can keep Bobbie. Having a good back-up plan will hopefully take a bit of pressure off.
 
That sounds a bit more positive all round. I'm glad that you now have an appointment at Moorfields and that the pressure is off as far as Bobbie is concerned. Do keep us updated when you have met the consultant. All the best
 
You sound much more positive today and it is much nicer to read. I'm crossing fingers that you get a decent result from moorfields.

I will say, from my experience with the DVLA and driving licenses, don't expect them to get back to you any time soon.
they took 6 months to give me the decision to revoke my HGV license due to black outs. In the mean time I was told to follow doctors advice, my doctors advice was to inform the DVLA! so legally I could have kept driving during that time.
 
Just wanted to note that we have very high expectations of modern medicine that can't always be met. Not everything can be cured, or managed, and senior doctors may still interpret data differently.

Medical staff should always be honest, upfront, use clear language, properly listen to the patient and be open to new approaches of course.

It's very bad that you've been left to stew and assume you'll be living in 100% blackness. Whatever happens I think it's worth writing a letter to the relevant trust, outlining your experience and how this prognosis could have been much better explained.

Wishing you and Bobbie all the best.
 
Am so glad to read that you've had some progress. And that you are feeling less desperate about future options. I really hope that Bobbie does stay with you and you keep driving. But if it ever comes to it, you know she is sought after and you could find her a fab home.

Hope you find some clearer answers via Moorfield and am keeping everything crossed here.
 
Can we have an update LW? I see from other threads that you've moved Bobby and are putting new shafts on your cart, so, thank goodness, you've been able to keep her and keep driving, and also still, for the moment, got your job. Did you lose your driving licence as you expected to?


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Can we have an update LW? I see from other threads that you've moved Bobby and are putting new shafts on your cart, so, thank goodness, you've been able to keep her and keep driving, and also still, for the moment, got your job. Did you lose your driving licence as you expected to?


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ycbm said:
Can we have an update LW? I see from other threads that you've moved Bobby and are putting new shafts on your cart, so, thank goodness, you've been able to keep her and keep driving, and also still, for the moment, got your job. Did you lose your driving licence as you expected to?


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You have been repeatedly asked by the poster to not contact or engage with her. While I know you consider posting in her threads your right, blah blah why not try to have some common decency, respect her wishes and rack off? Because however you justify it, your denial of LWs wishes looks a lot like bullying from where I'm sitting.
 
You are absolutely right. I should not have asked for an update on Monday. I apologise that I did.
 
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