I miss my horse so much

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Annie&Amy

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It's been a week and a half since she was put to sleep and i'm feeling really low today, think it's cause i got the bill for her cremation this morning. It's so strange without her especially cause the last three months anytime i've not been at work i've been at the yard nursing her. It's so strange not having a horse and it's not the same going upto the yard seeing the other horses there cause she's not there with them xxxx
 
Big hugs, i can only imagine the pain and hurt you are going through, and am truly dreading it if i have to go through a situation like yours. You did the right thing, I had to make the decision with Ellie, a 3 year old dog seven years ago when she had meningitis that lead to a lymphoma. I still m iss her to this day, but the hurt is less and the good memories are still there. you will never forget, just get a bit easier,
Sorry for waffling..
Big hugs to you xxxxxxxx
 
Bless you, i lost my horse Simon 2 years ago. I spent the last six months nursing him too so i know how you feel. Just remember the good times not the last few months nursing her and it will get easier. Ive now got two other horses and it helps the pain go away. They will never replace Simon as he was my best friend for 19 years but they do help put a smile on my face. HUGE HUGS to you xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
 
You have my sympathies, lost my gorgeous girl back in July, still cant believe she is gone.
It has got easier over the past few weeks, but silly things set me off, often find a tear slipping down my cheek when least expected, the worst being any song by Abba, we had been working on dressage to music using Dancing Queen, so with Mama Mai being so popular many a tear has been shed!
I do ride others but keep comparing them to her, none come close she was a horse of a life time and my best friend, its horrible isnt it, friends and famliy have been great but dont really seem to understand.
Keep your chin up and remember the good times
Sending hugs xxx
 
You should be so proud of yourself for caring for your horse until the end , it will take time to heal and it will never go away and may catch you at the least expecting moment.
She was loved and how many can say that, she was a very lucky mare to have you
 
Oh no
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how awful. Hugest hugs go out to you.
 
Big hug. I lost my beloved Arab 6 years ago. We spent 19 happy years together and I still miss him. But now, I remember all the fun we had together and know that he had a wonderful life and a dignified end. He never knew cruelty, hunger, pain, distress etc. Your loss is so recent, allow yourself to grieve. In time it will get better - you'll never forget, but I promise it gets better.
 
I am so sorry. Huge hugs to you. The pain does slowly fade, but you will always have memories to cherish.

When you feel easier, how about making a scrapbook?

Someone suggested it to me, and I am so glad I made a scrapbook. Like a tribute and its something positive you can keep forever.

Huge hugs. xx
 
(((hugs)))
I lost my boy 2 and a bit years ago. It hurt like hell, and still when i think about him it chokes me. I was talking about him today and had to check myself or i would have cried.
It will be raw for a very long time, but one day you will remember without the tears, and will smile about the times you shared together. You will always have your memories.


RIP little mare xx
 
I lost my boy in 2001 and gave up riding after it. I still have days where I think of him, and miss him. I slept in the stable the night before he went and at sunrise the Armageddon song came on the radio - I still can't listen to it! I thought my heart had literally snapped, and I didn't know what to do. I remember wandering around the house lost, without horses I though there was nothing. I kept his shoes and had them mounted, and blew a photo up onto a canvas. It takes courage and love to make that decision and I'm sure your horse knew she was loved until the end. Cry all you need to and don't worry you'll forget, you won't.
It took me until this year to ride again, I walked into a yard to try out a horse on part loan and had the biggest lump in my throat - he is the image of the one I lost.
And just because this poem, really, really helped

That life has set free
A million white horses
Forever to be
Don’t cry for the horses
Now in God's hands
As they dance and they prance
To a heavenly band
They were ours as a gift
But never to keep
As they close their eyes
Forever to sleep
Their spirits unbound
On silver wings they fly
A million white horses
Against the blue sky
Look up into heaven
You'll see them above
The horses we lost
The horses we loved
Manes and tails flowing
They gallop through time
They were never yours
They were never mine
Don't cry for the horses
They will be back someday
When our time has come
They will show us the way
Do you hear that soft nicker
Close to your ear
Don’t cry for the horses
Love the ones that are here
 
So sorry for your loss. I felt just the same when I lost Catembi. I'd nursed him for 6 months & it tore my heart to lose him.

I won't say that you should look back on the good times, etc, cos it took me a long, long time to get to that stage, & I'm not even sure I've reached it yet.
 
goodness, how sad, all these people who have lost their beloved horses. I dread the day it happens to me. i stayed with a friends horse at the beginning of the summer when she was pts, it was just heartbreaking and i cried buckets. So sorry for all of you who have lost yours.
 
i lost my 11month old colt in may and i still shed tears when i look at his pictures i slept in the stables at the vets for 2 nights and days trying to get him to eat and drink etc but in the end wee had to let him go to sleep. it is so hard and it will get better
 
i'm so sorry for your loss - it's a horrible place to be in where you are at the moment. i know when i was there i crashed my car on a post outside the school when i was taking my little'un in - i just wasn't thinking straight. keep strong and remember the good times - i know it's hard when a lot of people around don't realise quite how much it can affect you but i promise it does get easier. i've lost a horse, a dog, a cat(all my bestest friends for a long time) in the last year and now my new horse is ill - i'm trying to keep myself sane but it's hard isn't it. if you need a good wallow read the poem 'gods foal' and remember that your horse will be waiting for you at rainbow bridge. take care x
 
My daughter made a scrap book for me it was a lovely thought from her, the Rainbow Bridge poem is at the end, it does help to flick through it and remeember the good days with my darling girl.
 
I understand how dreadful you must feel.
I have yet to go through the pain but have had to be brave for two freinds 5 years apart 2 separate instances when the horse of their dreams had to be PTS when they were on holiday. One of them still cant bring herself to talk to me about it.
They leave a massive void in youir life when they are gone.
 
{ it will take time to heal and it will never go away and may catch you at the least expecting moment.}
that is so so true i've just had a weep reading this post thinking of my girl that i lost 5yrs ago. (((((hugs to all of you )))))
 
That is such a lovely poem and it made me cry.......waaaaaaaaaahhh

The hardest part of owning a horse is letting it go at the end of it's life for what ever reason that may be.

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So sorry to hear this - but its very early days. This morning I got to the yard and called out "Morning Alex" to my chestnut boy - Alex was pts 3 years ago and the chestnut head belongs to Gem! I still even dream about him - how said is that. He was my once in lifetime horse and I miss him so much.
 
I lost my boy about 8 weeks ago. I know how hard it is as he ment so much to me. All i can say is that it does get slighty easier over time. I love him so very much and i think about him all the time, but i keep remembering all the good times we had together. I hope you start to feel better soon. The first month was very hard and i still get set off by certain things and find myself cying but i know that he is now happy and pain free and that is what is important x
 
i am so sorry for you i know how you feel i lost my beautiful girl 14 weeks today and i still cry most days i sit and talk to her in her casket in my living room. i had a neklace and braclet made with her mane and tail and i where this ever day so i know she has never left my side they say time heals but my heart is still achcing loads. R.I.p my beautiful girl!
 
I, and many others on here, know exactly what you are feeling right now
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. The immediate aftermath is always the most horrid part.

Try to remember all of the lovely times you had together. I find that if I surround myself with photos of the animal, that it makes me feel so much more at ease with their passing. It IS hard though, no denying it, and I wish you the strength to see yourself through this time of great sadness.

Tia x
 
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