millreef
Well-Known Member
OK, where to start? First, thanks for reading this so far - you'll probably regret it so sorry in advance. So, I'm in my 40's and restarted my life with horses about 4-5 years ago when my husband bought me my horse. I used to ride once a week for fun but realized that I need to be a much better rider to help my horse fulfill his potential. I also have a horse crazy daughter now. I've been doing more and more riding and organizing shows at school and with pony club so I had a bright idea. I thought I'd enter for my stage 2 riding exam. I got my stable management 22 years ago and when I go to Morocco (where my horse is located), I organize all the childrens' lessons and pony camps etc. I thought if I get my Stage 2 exam I could then do the PTT and get a proper qualification in riding.
Problem is ...... I am so, so, so nervous EVERY SINGLE time I ride. I ride here in Hong Kong on riding school horses. I got myself worked up into such as state tonight (I rode 2 hours ago and I'm still crying and shaking), that I burst out into tears in the lesson. I was so frustrated with my riding and with being scared about what may happen. I picture things happening all the time. One of my instructors said I've got to get out of my comfort zone but honestly, that would mean just sitting on a horse sometimes! When I push myself, I feel sick (nearly vomited last week) so I've jumped a couple of courses and I've jumped quite high (for me anyway) at 90cm but I nearly had a heart attack. So what do I do to stop feeling like I'm a crap sandwich everytime I ride? I was so brave when I was young and now I'm a coward. Help and advice would be greatly received.
Problem is ...... I am so, so, so nervous EVERY SINGLE time I ride. I ride here in Hong Kong on riding school horses. I got myself worked up into such as state tonight (I rode 2 hours ago and I'm still crying and shaking), that I burst out into tears in the lesson. I was so frustrated with my riding and with being scared about what may happen. I picture things happening all the time. One of my instructors said I've got to get out of my comfort zone but honestly, that would mean just sitting on a horse sometimes! When I push myself, I feel sick (nearly vomited last week) so I've jumped a couple of courses and I've jumped quite high (for me anyway) at 90cm but I nearly had a heart attack. So what do I do to stop feeling like I'm a crap sandwich everytime I ride? I was so brave when I was young and now I'm a coward. Help and advice would be greatly received.