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Bettyboo222

Bettyboo222

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Since I lost B, I promised you all I would keep you updated on how I was. I'm as ok as can be expected, I'm doing a lot of showing and driven work with a friend's pony, I'm still finding being at the yard very very difficult, and I can't touch her stuff.

People still refer to where she was as 'B's stable' which is very hard and I can't go past there, but I'm keeping busy by applying to uni and things.
 
I had been absent from the forum for a while and only just came across your threads a few weeks ago including the photos of Bs life which i loved. I didnt feel i had the right words to say to you then nor do i feel i have now but i always thoroughly enjoyed B weekly walks and her sparkly full of life eyes! I hope with time things get easier for you as you always did the best for B and remember when you are ready to sort any of her things just because they arent there or are tidied away she is always with you and i truly believe in the big green field in the sky!
 
It's a very wierd feeling of loss, sometimes I can remember the happy times and smile, but there are other times when I feel like I have lost a part of me and feel bad for even smiling. I still look into her field when I get to the farm, there is another grey in there and for a second or so there is that little bit of hope that it is all a terrible dream and none of it happened but then I realise it's not her and it's crushing
 
Oh i am truly sorry. I cannot find the words to comfort you but you cannot feel bad when you remember the good times. These are the things you must remember, you made a golden oldie feel truly loved and cherished when many would have forgotten about them you always did right for B and i am sure she would thank you and others for making the decision for her. It will get easier and all be it hard being at the yard it may be the best thing as perhaps you will be able to be comforted by your memories at a later stage.
 
:( bless you

I also lost my B one month today and it still hurts like hell! One minute im okay and know i did the right thing and the next i feel gulity and miss him so much!

Nothing will make it feel better than time, like others have said, think of the good times. Remember how well loved she was, all her funny traits and eventually you will smile when you remember her

Massive hug xx
 
Bless your heart. I know how you feel only too well. I still had to go to look after my other horse after I lost Bob, and it was very hard not seeing him there. Its a small private yard with just the two horses and two ponies now, so he is much missed. I still say goodnight to him when I leave! I still feel he is still there somewhere. It will get easier, like everyone says, but you will get days when it gets a little too much. Smile when you think of her, she always be in your heart. Lots of (((hugs ))) for you xx
 
(((((((hugs))))))))
I know how hard it is to loose something you love more than anything in the world. It was hard when I lost Lucy as I lived where she had lived and could see her stable from my bedroom window.
I couldn't bare to even look at Herbie for a month after I lost her and thats something I feel guilty about now as it wasn't his fault. But the pain was to much and I just wanted Lucy back. Time does help. The pain of loosing Lucy has still not left me, (I won't lie and say it has) But it's much easyer to deal with and the happy memorys are much stronger. When I feel myself getting sad now I think of something funny she used to do and I laugh, that is after all how they would want us to remember them. Give yourself time and do whatever you need to do.
As to her stable, Merryn uses one of Lucy's saddles and I still even now call it Lucy's saddle. It was hers and always will be. It does lead to confution when I ask my OH to get Lucy's saddle though ;)
Take care of yourself and if you need someone to talk to i'm always just a PM away. xx
 
I'm so, so sorry, I hadn't realised you'd lost her.

Live in the knowledge that you gave her the best of your love, care and dedication. She was a lucky mare to have you, as you were to have her. Reading your posts about B struck a cord with me and my years with my boy, I know the pain you're feeling, it truly does suck. Remember the happiness she made you feel, and cry when you need to. I really am truly sorry for your loss x x
 
I'm sorry - wish I could say something that would help, Beauty was very special and I loved her walks. Thinking of you x
 
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