I've ran out of energy!

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cblover

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Literally.....I ache all over and have no strength or energy after this flaming winter! I know we all feel the same! Can’t seem to get inspired to want to plan this year’s equestrian events with Kinzzy or anything really. I'm hoping some sun might spur me on a bit. I have a feeling not though and something is going to have to give. Why am I aching all over? ….well my age, workload, years of doing the same things and general wear and tear I suppose. But I also have lots of auto immune conditions…..under active thyroid, pernicious anaemia, mixed connective tissue disease and auto immune hepatitis. Need thyroxine each day and vitamin b12 injection every 8 week. On steroids to reduce liver inflammation and pain killers when needed. Daily symptoms are fatigue and severe joint pain. My knees literally throb by the end of the day. I used to be so strong and now I’m really not….can’t lift anything and it’s a pain.

This is just a maybe at the minute but as I can't sell/give away hubby or child that just leaves a change at the ranch to help reduce my workload. God it doesn't even bare thinking about really......

Kinzzy will never leave my care and she’s the one I do most with at the minute although riding has been very little this winter with weather and me feeling crap. Teddy is rising 3 this year and ready to be sat on at the end of this year but no more as he's still a baby....he’s everything I wanted in a 'bigger kinzzy' type horse but can I bring a young horse on again the way I’m feeling….god knows! I have lots of emotion wrapped up in Teddy (abscess problems) and worry where he would end up if he was sold. He's fed a specially balanced diet of vitamins and minerals that isn't cheap and he's just the type to attract the wrong people...if you know what I mean. lol

Khan was gifted to me because I needed something to leave with Teddy when I rode Kinzzy. I could just keep him and Kinzzy or possibly get an older and bigger horse to have with Kinzzy and just have two? A sort of teddy in 10 years time. That would be less work but I’d need to be able to take them away from each other. Teddy seems to be the weakest link but I don't want him to be.....argh!

It could be the weather, the lack of grass and sun, knee deep mud, wasted hay in the field hubby is moaning about, bog burnt feathers and general crapiness making me feel like this….but I can’t do another winter like this again. Should I keep what I’ve got and wait and see? I once sold a horse because I wanted the situation sorted and so regret it now. There is so much uncertainty out there and I’d hate mine to head into that market.

On a brighter note, its really lovely here today!
 
Hang on in there spring is on its way, then make your decision you may regret the outcome if you're feeling really down now sunshine always gives us a better outlook to life.;)
 
Thanks, I'm trying! They do say if in doubt do nothing....I'll have to just wait and see. In the past I've been keen to 'solve' things and lived to regret it so doing nothing might just be the answer!
 
Hugs. Doing nothing is for once the right idea for now
However the problem you might have is leaving it too long and completely forgetting how you feel now. Then come next winter you really may not be able to cope. I have rheumatoid which is also an immune disorder. The pain and the weakness get worse every year. So it isn't always realistic to be able to just keep going doing the same things. Sometimes we HAVE to lighten the load
Hugs as I know how hard it is
 
Big Hugs to you, winter can be a crap time of year with horses - it amazes me how we all struggle on to keep our lovely neds with our own problems. If it's any consolation, Your'e not alone, I'm struggling too with an ME type illness that seems to be worse in winter or if I come down with a cold/flu virus :mad:
My poor mare is struggling with cushings/laminitis/thin abscessed soles/ and needs twice daily meds + the dressing changed on her foot. My other mare (her companion) is confined to a small patch where poorly horse can see her and has to come in every day.
So that equals me leaving home at 6.30 every day doing horses, then work for 9 hours, back to horses and not home until around 8pm, then eat and bed. So totally exhausted by the end of the week = no social life am too exhausted to even pick up the phone and speak to people - not a good lifestye and like you, don't think I can do another winter like this one

Agree with don't do anything just yet, wait til spring - that's what I'm doing just hanging in there - can't get rid of any of mine just cos I'm tired :D That said, don't make yourself worse. I'm thinking of getting a sharer for my ridden one - could you consider that?
All the best - hugs to all of us mad hard working horse owners/lovers xxxx
 
Doesn't sound, OP, as though you would pass the vet!
I only have thyroid troubles and agree it makes you tired.
I have finally decided that having horses at pets is acceptable, they don't care if they aren't ridden. So, the only rideable one I have is just an ornament unless I really feel like it when we go out for a potter. Come the spring we will get fit and go forth but really he is quite happy being muddy and living out most of the time.
Don't try to be superwoman.
 
Thanks folks, I would absolutely not pass a vetting! lol

I know plenty people are in the same boat but it seems never ending doesn't it. I think hanging onto Teddy is the right thing to do and I don't want to sell him just because things have got a bit tough...thats not me at all. He deserve more...they all do! Roll on better weather.
 
Hang on in there... Not so long ago (ie. up until last friday) I was feeling exactly the same and almost at breaking point... then i came down with Shingles... so felt even worse. Both my horses ended up on box rest, and one of them still has a very guarded prognosis, thankfully the other is absolutely fine! But I just wanted to jack it all in, sit in a dark room and cry!

Yesterday, I rode my non injured horse for the first time in weeks and weeks, he was fab, the sun was out and i then turned him and his field mate onto the rested paddock, that had dried out and has a decent covering of grass on it, the birds were singing, it was warm, I didnt rug, and had a generally lovely day.

Chin up, it will get better! But also, Big Hugs!!! Its not easy, but its amazing one single day of enjoying having horses again has done for me after a really difficult few months!
 
I've been jobbing about in the sun this afternoon and now I'm back reaching for the deep heat for my knees! lol Was worth it though. funny thing is, riding doesn't make them any worse which is a blessing. I was looking into Vit D and it could be worth me starting to take this. Anything to help with the pain and raise energy levels would be worth a go!
 
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