Ally.235
New User
So I’ve been riding for about 10 years now and I even have my own share board horse which I ride twice a week, once on a jack alone, and once in a lesson. I also take lessons at a more formal barn further away for hunter competitions. I’ve jumped up to 3’6 before but I’ve had many falls in the past 6 months. Now I just jump and compete in the tiny cross rails and I know I can do more. The fancier barn won’t let me jump higher but I fell off twice in three weeks there and my confidence had been really low. I’m constantly thinking about the horse refusing so I ride very defensive and focused. At the other barn the horses aren’t as trained and I mainly ride my horse. She’s an honest jumper but gets really tired or too quick. There I jump all kinds of things but I’m constantly worried about falling. How can I build up my confidence so that I’m not frozen terrified when I go to canter jumps. I can trot anything but as soon as my instructor says canter I freak out and can hear my heart beating in my head. I know how to ride and I know how to count strides but when I go to jump I forget everything. It’s so embarrassing to be doing little cross rails when I know I could do more if I was less nervous please help I have a lesson tomorrow and i have no idea what to do. This alone has caused me to cancel lessons and shows becuase of the nerves but I always feels guilty later and get mad at myself for not at least giving it a go. Any tips would be appreciated!! Thank you!