kirstie
Well-Known Member
Sorry if this is long...
I had a bad accident in September and broke my back. Fell badly from a young horse at work. The accident was very painful, I spent weeks on my back in hospital, the break was unstable, so even when I was allowed to move around a bit in my back brace, I had to be careful for a month or so, one false move... You get the picture.
I had a long time on morphine, had to have personal care for ages as I couldn't do anything for myself, it was a real nasty shock to me.
My recovery has been "remarkable" according to my doctor and after what feels like an eternity, I am finally allowed to ride again.
My horse is a 6yo 17hh Trakehner mare, lovely, talented but also sharp and tricky at times. She has had a holiday whilst I've been recovering, on livery.
I used to work with horses as a dressage rider/ head girl. I was always very confident, rode to a good standard, wasn't particularly phased by anything and would get on most horses within reason without a second thought.
I was very worried before I got back on that I wouldn't be as good as I used to be, would be more cautious, worried etc.
I have been bringing my girl back into work the past two weeks, just in walk, a mixture of schooling and hacking. She has been as good as gold really, considering she has been in quite a bit lately because of her own injuries (all better now) and I thought we were doing well until today.
We were just coming back from a nice hack when something set her off, as well as the horses in the fields next to us. We were coming up a track where her TO field is situated. The other horses started running around and she just seemed to lose the plot.
She started flinging herself around, leaping, then running backwards, nearly into an electris fence. I somehow managed to stop her doing that and then I just seemed to freeze.
I remember seriously thinking about bailing out. She wasn't doing anything terrible by any means, just the sheer feeling of uncontrolled power really panicked me. She ended up running into a hedge head first, I ended up chewing branches before I pulled myself together and got her out and together.
She has cut her face where there was barbed wire in the hedge
I managed to get some control and we passage'd back to the yard with the horses an the fields going mad next to her and got back in one piece.
I just feel really rubbish now. I know she is sharp and reactive, she is a dressage horse and it is how she has always been.
Before the accident I would have been in control of the situation before it escalated and I wouldn't have thought anything of it. I probably would have laughed at her, and there is no way I would have let her run into a hedge!
I remember thinking when the young horse was trying to get me off how bloody powerful he was, it was almost like I had a flash back whilst she was leaping about and I just froze.
I'm sorry this is so long, thanks if you've managed to get this far.
I'm just really worried that I've lost my nerve and when she does have her silly moments I'm just not going to cope with it well anymore
I had a bad accident in September and broke my back. Fell badly from a young horse at work. The accident was very painful, I spent weeks on my back in hospital, the break was unstable, so even when I was allowed to move around a bit in my back brace, I had to be careful for a month or so, one false move... You get the picture.
I had a long time on morphine, had to have personal care for ages as I couldn't do anything for myself, it was a real nasty shock to me.
My recovery has been "remarkable" according to my doctor and after what feels like an eternity, I am finally allowed to ride again.
My horse is a 6yo 17hh Trakehner mare, lovely, talented but also sharp and tricky at times. She has had a holiday whilst I've been recovering, on livery.
I used to work with horses as a dressage rider/ head girl. I was always very confident, rode to a good standard, wasn't particularly phased by anything and would get on most horses within reason without a second thought.
I was very worried before I got back on that I wouldn't be as good as I used to be, would be more cautious, worried etc.
I have been bringing my girl back into work the past two weeks, just in walk, a mixture of schooling and hacking. She has been as good as gold really, considering she has been in quite a bit lately because of her own injuries (all better now) and I thought we were doing well until today.
We were just coming back from a nice hack when something set her off, as well as the horses in the fields next to us. We were coming up a track where her TO field is situated. The other horses started running around and she just seemed to lose the plot.
She started flinging herself around, leaping, then running backwards, nearly into an electris fence. I somehow managed to stop her doing that and then I just seemed to freeze.
I remember seriously thinking about bailing out. She wasn't doing anything terrible by any means, just the sheer feeling of uncontrolled power really panicked me. She ended up running into a hedge head first, I ended up chewing branches before I pulled myself together and got her out and together.
She has cut her face where there was barbed wire in the hedge
I managed to get some control and we passage'd back to the yard with the horses an the fields going mad next to her and got back in one piece.
I just feel really rubbish now. I know she is sharp and reactive, she is a dressage horse and it is how she has always been.
Before the accident I would have been in control of the situation before it escalated and I wouldn't have thought anything of it. I probably would have laughed at her, and there is no way I would have let her run into a hedge!
I remember thinking when the young horse was trying to get me off how bloody powerful he was, it was almost like I had a flash back whilst she was leaping about and I just froze.
I'm sorry this is so long, thanks if you've managed to get this far.
I'm just really worried that I've lost my nerve and when she does have her silly moments I'm just not going to cope with it well anymore