missy86
New User
Hi all,
Had a pretty awful day today and hoping by talking about it with some horsey minded people I might be able to make sense of it all?
I have just been given the ride of three lovely, genuine competition (show jumping) horses which have been out of proper work for a few weeks and need bringing back into properly. I have been up to the yard four times now, the past three times have gone really well and I have really got back into jumping - The horses are lovely and the owners just as nice.
However, today I went up and took my mother & grandfather who I get up tight in front of (long story) and completely messed up. I rode like an idiot and got two of three horses on a couple of really bad strides and the stallion I rode ended up knocking his stifle, I feel so totally guilty. Now I just feel useless and remember why I gave up competing in the first place, I just lost my confidence as I get so worried about the horses.
Now I am seriously considering not going back and riding for the owners as 1. I feel so embarrassed and 2. I don't feel good enough, I've really let the owners down.
What would you do?
Had a pretty awful day today and hoping by talking about it with some horsey minded people I might be able to make sense of it all?
I have just been given the ride of three lovely, genuine competition (show jumping) horses which have been out of proper work for a few weeks and need bringing back into properly. I have been up to the yard four times now, the past three times have gone really well and I have really got back into jumping - The horses are lovely and the owners just as nice.
However, today I went up and took my mother & grandfather who I get up tight in front of (long story) and completely messed up. I rode like an idiot and got two of three horses on a couple of really bad strides and the stallion I rode ended up knocking his stifle, I feel so totally guilty. Now I just feel useless and remember why I gave up competing in the first place, I just lost my confidence as I get so worried about the horses.
Now I am seriously considering not going back and riding for the owners as 1. I feel so embarrassed and 2. I don't feel good enough, I've really let the owners down.
What would you do?