Merlin is home with me....

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I've just gone and collected Merlin from the vets extreamly upset again, he's in a lovely casket but my god he still weighs a ton....going to get a lovely plaque made for him, my emotions are all over the place still, just wish he was home in a stable, but he's now next to my bed for the moment.

I'm relived to have him back with me now though!

Whilst I was there picking him up there was another lady collecting her horses ashes, both of us balling our eyes out....it brings it all back to you!

My hubby has been a star with this too, he lifted him up as was too heavy for me and was there for me for support again.

So am happy that he's back with his mummy again!!
 
Aw, Kezz, plenty hugs for you, I can't imagine what you're going through. At least he's home and you can start the long road to recovery. It's natural to grieve, just let the tears flow and eventually you'll come out the other side.
 
I've found some sweet chestnuts and conkers that i'v planted in pots, hopefully they will take and shall plant them round my field in memory of all my horses that have gone on before Kestrel.
 
Ahh thanks guys, he's not coming out of the casket...can't scatter ashes either not that I would want to do this, I would like him near me all the time...funny how your emotions get heaved back up just as I was starting to come to terms with him not being here....

very sad but happy at the same time that he's back with me, just cant feed him carrots no more...lol
 
I lost a horse who I'd had for 20 years 2 years ago & it still brings tears to my eyes sometimes. At first I found going to the yard to see to my other horse difficult & only did flying visits,as her not being there didn't seem right.
I was going to scatter my dog's ashes last week, which made me cry again;she's been dead for nearly a year. She was my Dad's dog & the only thing I inherited from him so she was my only link to him. I didn't have time in the end so she's still at home.
I see that Merlin has only been dead since August, in the grieving process it's still early days, it takes time.
 
i'm another one with johnrobert.

We've planted trees for every horse that's left us. We try to plant it in their favourite spot, but if that's not possible then find somewhere that's special to you. A favourite spot on a hack, a quiet corner of your garden, something like that.

hugs on their way, it's a horrible feeling isn't it.
 
aww hunni, i really feel for you, my thoughts are with you.
ive still got my cheeky monkey next to my bed with a pic of him on it and some of his mane, he had to be put down 2 years ago and i still think about how he gave me confidence, made me laugh and cry, when i first jumped him etc.

try and be strong hunni xxxxxxxxx
 
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