If it's any consolation I found the girls ashes very comforting after a few days of getting my head around it. I always intended scattering them but the time doesn't feel right and I am not ready yet.
Now I am familiar with the idea I chat to them and they get a rub lol. It's mad I know but it is just so nice having them around.
I promise you it will get easier. I have the odd tearful moment after 3 years but I have more smiles and happy memories.
I echo that... I ahve my beloved girls ashes right next to me right now, she passed away in her sleep on NYEve 2006, and I still call her in the field if not thining straight :-(... do intend to scatter them, but like someone else said, don't feel it's the right thing yet, and I still talk to her...
I lost my beautiful girl Holly coming up for 4 years ago and I think about her every day. She had a broken leg in the field and at the age of 7 was far too young to be taken from me. I scattered 90% of her ashes under her favourite tree and the rest are at home. It does get easier in time and my new girl helped - she is so like Holly in many ways I swear Holly gives her cheeky ideas and tips to test me. I still see Holly every day on my phone, shes my screensaver, she gets a flower or too every now and again, esp on Christmas Day which is when she went back to her field. Time does heal but you never forget your special memories.