My heart is breaking..vibes please

I am so so sorry you have been through this. I know the pain of 2 going together, I found great comfort in knowing they were together at Rainbow Bridge pain free. Look after yourself, and I hope you find comfort in you lovely memories xxx
 
Such a sad thing for you to go through, you've handled it all so well. You gave them a loving, caring home, did your best by them and when the time came you were there for them when they needed you the most.
 
Thank you..:-) some really lovely messages & such kind words here that are helping...but I'm really struggling this eve, J has had to go home this eve so am on my own since he went to work this morning, the day was ok ish but I felt I had to force my self to spend longer than 6 minutes feeding & haying them this morning..I do love my two boys, but they just aren't Jessie & Blossom & I just can't bond with them..they aren't cuddly & aren't knowing or as affectionate..infact they just aren't mares. I feel awful for writing this especially as one was a bit too noisy & gurgley on the gut sounds front this eve & had hurt his eye, but I stayed till I was happy he had settled. I've never not had mares & it has suddenly hit me..they seem totally oblivious to my world crashing down..I tried to have a cuddle with Safe but he was just busy eating..so I tried with Walty & got a piggy ears back face..I felt sorry for him as his mum Blossom has gone, but I know she would have told him off for that..Jessie went up a couple of times in the last days to him at the gate to their field..she gave him a serious telling off roar, complete with both front feet stamped at him as she did a little all legs off the ground bounce..& he hadn't done anything, so maybe that was a telling off in advance as she wouldn't be there to do it in future! I just really wanted to bury my face in one of their manes & for them to stand & cuddle back, the way the girls used to.The girls did walk over to say goodbye & stood at the boys gate yesterday morning..I had gone to get their headcollars & ropes to walk them away to the lush field & they had quite literally legged it to the boys..something they would never normally do & especially for Bloss to walk over that far & that quickly when she was finding it hard to walk to her feed makes me sure they knew exactly what the day was..why can't geldings be more like mares?:-(
 
I don't know what to say, other than I know how you feel. The night that my last horse was PTS, my OH was on nights so I was left at home on my own - just me and this forum, but was able to take some comfort from the messages that were left for me. You need to cry as much as you need to - and sometimes this is easier when you are on your own. Each day will get just a little easier than the day before. x
 
I found feed time with my other two the most difficult when I lost my mare recently - still do. She was unique - gentle, mannerly and a real lady in a way neither of my other two are or can be. I miss her. They are all unique and you loved your girls and will miss them - I can't begin to imagine how it feels to lose the two. Allow yourself to be upset - I still do (on my own) - you've lost your mares. Your boys will eventually cheer up you up because with their own ways and in time you will be so glad you have the memories of your girls. Look after yourself.
 
There is nothing I can say or do to make this easier for you .The truth and proof of our love for our horses is the pain we all inevitably have to feel at their parting.
 
Oh my dear, I know how hard it is to lose a lifetime companion after many many years (a mare). Please take great comfort in the fact that you can sit with them at their resting plece in times to come and enjoy the sunset, remembering all the joy they have brought you.
My heart goes out to you, it really does. Those mares were so lucky to have shared their lives with you, their spirits will never leave you, of that I am sure xxxxxxx
 
My friend had her old lad pts a few weeks ago and was really struggling with coming to terms with it. She went and sat where he'd been shot holding his head collar and told him why she'd done it and told him how much she loved him and that she was so sorry for having done it. She sat there for ages crying and talking to him and said that a feeling of peace and reassurance replaced the grief she'd felt.
The day after Zeus departed she took in a friend's horse who needed box rest. He went to where Zeus had lain and started acting strangely ran off then returned and stood on the spot for ages with his head down.
It is an awful decision to have to make and just because it's the right decision does not make it hurt any less. My thoughts are with you and I hope you find the same peace of mind that my friend did
 
SaharaS said:
I can barely type for tears, but due to two separate accidents, tomorrow after 10 days of trying everything, I will have to say goodbye to my two beautiful thoroughbred mares. Jessie I have been honoured to own since she was 7 and would be 29 next march & her best friend of 14 years Blossom, who would be 19 in May. I can't believe this is happening and cannot even bring myself to say more, just now...please may we have some Hho vibes to get us thru tomorrow..I really feel like my heart is breaking, we've been through so much & I love them more than anything..I just can't believe this is happening, but at least these two best friends will always be together..run free my beautiful girls, xxx
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So very sorry for your troubles xx
 
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