My Sadie May - Would have been our 20th anniversary today

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Sadiemay

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I lost my horse of a lifetime 12 weeks and 5 days ago and I am not coping very well at all. She was my childhood pony who came into my life when I was just 14 years old. I grew up with her, she helped me become the women I am today and I feel like I have lost a massive part of me :(

Today is particularly hard as we would have shared our 20th anniversary today :( I can still rememeber the moment I laid eyes on her as if it was only yesterday. How can time have gone so quickly?

God I miss her so so much, she was my best friend and I feel so lost without her. I wonder if the pain ever starts to heal, even a little.

No point to this thread really I just needed to write down how I am feeling today and to write a little something to my special girl:

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY my beautiful Sadie May.

I still remember the 7th October all those years ago when I first saw you and our friendship began like it was only yesterday, do you remember too?

I cannot believe your not here on this special day, it feels like the cruelest thing that you are not here with me. What I wouldn’t give to have you here with me just for an hour or even a single minute.

12 weeks and 5 days girl……..will I ever stop counting?...…..life is so hard without you and I miss you desperately every single day. As time goes by I am able to function more with life but inside I feel so sad and alone, like a vital part of me is missing and that is you my girl.

Don’t worry though, I will be OK, I have to be dont I? and even though you are gone in body your spirit lives on in me and will give me the strength I need in life.

Everything Carl and I do in the future for needy animals and horses will be done in your memory…..in your name. I hope that makes you proud sweet girl? You will live on in our hearts and always be part of our family, never ever forgotten.

I will see you again one day Sadie and that brings me some comfort, in the meantime I hope your happy with your health restored and getting used to running with the sky herd, look out for each other and don’t forget me will you?


You were and are my best friend
You know that you are
We're weren’t always together
But we were never far apart

Over the years
We acted like clowns
You'd always make me smile
when I wore a frown

We’ve got lots of memories
And had lots of fun
Our prizes are limitless
From a race we've both run

I shared all my secrets
My worries and dreams
And when the stitching came apart
Its you who mended the seams

I want you to know that
From now until the end
You'll be in my heart
I love you - my best friend


I will light a candle for you and I tonight.

Mum
Xxx

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Sadie May, you have brought tears to my eyes. I know exactly how you feel. I lost my best friend in March and I can't seem to get over it. I haven't spoken about her much to my family and friends because I can't. The only way I can deal with the loss is to try and not think about her. I hate doing that but the pain is still so raw.

I really do feel your loss and my arms stretch out to you. Nothing I could ever say could make you feel better but please know that I am here.

Sadie May and Jamin could never have been loved more and we have to take comfort in that.

Big hugs, especially for today.

RIP Sadie May x
 
Sometimes when reading words on here, the sadness and love in the text leaps from the screen. For that moment, on reading your words, your loss was transferred into my heart.
I understand, and I wish I could give you some respite from your grief today. Partnerships like yours and Sadie May's are a gift. You were both so lucky, and you're right, special horses like her never really leave us.

Sleep sweetly, Sadie May.
 
Hugs to you, and strangely enough I know exeactly how you feel. My old TB who I lost 2 and a bit years ago would have been with me for 19 years today :-( xx
 
Bug hugs from us all here , I know exactly how you feel , there are some friends ( animal and human ) that make such a big impact on our lives wether they are in them for short times or long , don't try to hide your feelings or ' get over them ' you probably never will , just rejoice each day , celebrate and remember her everyday.
 
I cannot say I know how you are feeling because I cant, your post made me cry it is so full of emotion, she is with you everyday the rustle in the wind, the sun in the sky, the twinkle of sunlight on freshly fallen snow.

Take heart be stong, thinking of you, dont bottle away your feelings.

They are a massive part of our lives I dread the day I have to part from my boy but I know that when I do it wont be forever and we will meet again, as will you and your girl one day

Lots of hugs
 
Thank you for your replies and kind words. It helps a little to not feel quite so alone, even just for a little while.

I just cant beleive she is really gone even after all this time :( I can only manage to take a day at a time as the thought of any further along in time with her not part of it is just overwhelmingly devestating.

How am I supposed to carry on without her?. I feel like I am functioning/existing but not living if that makes sense? How will I ever laugh, feel happiness or contentment ever again :(

We were a team, me and her against the world in our own little world. She was my best buddy, my furry daughter....my everything! and just being in her presence made the world seem like a better place and now I just feel emptyness and see a black hole.

I would surely sell my soul to the devil for just one more hug with her, to bury myself into her neck or hear her loving nicker she used to do for only me.

I am so sorry to everyone who has lost a beloved equine companion as I wouldnt wish this pain and loss on my worst enemy :(

Thanks for letting me get my feelings down and for your kind supportive words ((HUG))

RIP my gorgeous girl...my angel with hooves.....until we are united again xxx

Sadiemay
xx
 
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i can feel your pain, i ahve just got in from having my old boy pts this afternoon. I am coping remarkably well at the moment but i know 2morrow wll be another story when i dont have to go up to that yard to feed him. i dont think its sunk in yet. I only hope it gets easier for you and for me when reality hits.
I have owned him for the last 13 years so it will be so strange not to see his face or feel his whiskers again. My gorgeous boy run free and go play with sadie! RIP gorgeous friends x x
 
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