louise8667
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I am half considering having my horse put to sleep.
I'm sorry for the long dialogue below, but there is some history, I'll try & make it brief!
3 years ago he was diagnosed with bilateral PSD in both hinds, showing a mild lameness but enough that he resented being worked. Hes had all the treatment going ending in a fasciotomy neurectomy which at first seemed a sucess but since bringing him back into work he had issues with the sacroilliac. Both diseases are definately related, I suspect that the sacrolliac may have been the original problem causing the PSD. Anyway, again he had all the treatment going but was so unhappy that the only choice left to me was to turn him away for a year in the hope that it just needed time to settle down.
So a year on & I have been doing light hacking, but the last few weeks I felt he had got worse again. Called the vet, nerve blocked the suspensory, straight away he went sound and lame on the other leg. Vet is therefore 100% sure that he is feeling pain again and can only assume the nerve has regrown. Very rare apparently, but told that it does happen. The vet feels that it is a mild degree of lameness and is suprised I can even notice it. But the trouble is it is very noticable when he is ridden. He feels so stilted, every stride is so slow he feels like he could just stop at any moment. He does't look in pain, just very slow. The vet suggested to try giving him up to 3 bute 2 hours before I ride to see if that makes a difference. Not ideal I know, but if it means I can get 30mins enjoyment out of him a week, and its not actually causing any harm, then why not? So we tried it and was so pleased to find that he felt almost like my old horse again. Only went round the block but it was so nice to feel like he 'wanted' to go out. Tried it again the next day but results weren't so good. Tried again this weekend and he was the worse hes ever been. Very slow, tried a trot and I could hear him dragging both back toes. His ears were back. Came straight home & decided thats enough, he is 100% retired.
He's only 16, he could have another 10 years in him - maybe more! I love this horse to absolute bits and feel awful for even considering putting him down. My thoughts are that if his quality of life is good then how can you end a healthy horses life? He potters round the field OK, he lives out in a herd in about 60 acres. I'm in absolute no rush to do anything, but it is playing on my mind. When leading him to & from the field he moves very slowly so he must be feeling it. Its hard to know if its pain or just uncomfortable. The ligament hasn't ruptured as his fetlocks haven't dropped etc. Hes the kind of horse that does need looking after, hes TB so needs feeding everyday, if he gets a kick 9 times out of 10 he need antibiotics - so what I'm trying to say is I wouldn't be happy to give him away as a companion as I don't trust anyone to look after him as well as I do. Then theres the cost, I can't afford another horse & don't have the time to do another one, so I could end up not enjoying something I love so much for the next 10 years! I know this is one of the risks you take when owning horses but that doesn't help when your worst nightmare comes true.
Just writing this is helping me reach the conclusion that the right time will be when hes starting look fed up when hes out with his mates. The way hes gone downhill so quickly in the last few weeks, maybe that will be sooner than I think. Who knows.
I have tried everything to try & get this horse comfortable, I dread to think how much I've spent over the last 3 years to come back and be at square one again.
Thank-you to anyone who has taken the time to read this.
I am just wondering if theres anyone else out there who has been in a similar position & what they did.
I'm sorry for the long dialogue below, but there is some history, I'll try & make it brief!
3 years ago he was diagnosed with bilateral PSD in both hinds, showing a mild lameness but enough that he resented being worked. Hes had all the treatment going ending in a fasciotomy neurectomy which at first seemed a sucess but since bringing him back into work he had issues with the sacroilliac. Both diseases are definately related, I suspect that the sacrolliac may have been the original problem causing the PSD. Anyway, again he had all the treatment going but was so unhappy that the only choice left to me was to turn him away for a year in the hope that it just needed time to settle down.
So a year on & I have been doing light hacking, but the last few weeks I felt he had got worse again. Called the vet, nerve blocked the suspensory, straight away he went sound and lame on the other leg. Vet is therefore 100% sure that he is feeling pain again and can only assume the nerve has regrown. Very rare apparently, but told that it does happen. The vet feels that it is a mild degree of lameness and is suprised I can even notice it. But the trouble is it is very noticable when he is ridden. He feels so stilted, every stride is so slow he feels like he could just stop at any moment. He does't look in pain, just very slow. The vet suggested to try giving him up to 3 bute 2 hours before I ride to see if that makes a difference. Not ideal I know, but if it means I can get 30mins enjoyment out of him a week, and its not actually causing any harm, then why not? So we tried it and was so pleased to find that he felt almost like my old horse again. Only went round the block but it was so nice to feel like he 'wanted' to go out. Tried it again the next day but results weren't so good. Tried again this weekend and he was the worse hes ever been. Very slow, tried a trot and I could hear him dragging both back toes. His ears were back. Came straight home & decided thats enough, he is 100% retired.
He's only 16, he could have another 10 years in him - maybe more! I love this horse to absolute bits and feel awful for even considering putting him down. My thoughts are that if his quality of life is good then how can you end a healthy horses life? He potters round the field OK, he lives out in a herd in about 60 acres. I'm in absolute no rush to do anything, but it is playing on my mind. When leading him to & from the field he moves very slowly so he must be feeling it. Its hard to know if its pain or just uncomfortable. The ligament hasn't ruptured as his fetlocks haven't dropped etc. Hes the kind of horse that does need looking after, hes TB so needs feeding everyday, if he gets a kick 9 times out of 10 he need antibiotics - so what I'm trying to say is I wouldn't be happy to give him away as a companion as I don't trust anyone to look after him as well as I do. Then theres the cost, I can't afford another horse & don't have the time to do another one, so I could end up not enjoying something I love so much for the next 10 years! I know this is one of the risks you take when owning horses but that doesn't help when your worst nightmare comes true.
Just writing this is helping me reach the conclusion that the right time will be when hes starting look fed up when hes out with his mates. The way hes gone downhill so quickly in the last few weeks, maybe that will be sooner than I think. Who knows.
I have tried everything to try & get this horse comfortable, I dread to think how much I've spent over the last 3 years to come back and be at square one again.
Thank-you to anyone who has taken the time to read this.
I am just wondering if theres anyone else out there who has been in a similar position & what they did.