RIP my beautiful boy... how quickly things can change

I'm so so sorry for you. I have recently and suddenly lost my boy. There is no worse feeling. Remember all the good times. :(
 
So sorry Shadowflame. I lost my own beautiful piebald boy to colic three years ago this month on a hot sunny day. He had never colicked in his life and I think the worst thing was the shock of one minute here and the next minute gone. Like you, I was there and able to do my very best for him.
I still feel the pain very frequently but the good memories do temper it now and you will be able to cling on to yours as time goes on. I still talk about my boy all the time, my grooming box still has his name on and I have kept his saddle. I now have another piebald who is very different but I am growing very fond of him. It hurts when I accidentally call him my old boy's name but he is helping to fill that emptiness.
My heart goes out to you so much - I will never forget that huge shock and grief and I can imagine what you are going through. At first my friends thought I wouldn't want to talk about it but I did and it helped. Let all the grief out and PM me if you want to. Sending cyber hugs and much sympathy.
 
moleskinsmum said:
So sorry Shadowflame. I lost my own beautiful piebald boy to colic three years ago this month on a hot sunny day. He had never colicked in his life and I think the worst thing was the shock of one minute here and the next minute gone. Like you, I was there and able to do my very best for him.
I still feel the pain very frequently but the good memories do temper it now and you will be able to cling on to yours as time goes on. I still talk about my boy all the time, my grooming box still has his name on and I have kept his saddle. I now have another piebald who is very different but I am growing very fond of him. It hurts when I accidentally call him my old boy's name but he is helping to fill that emptiness.
My heart goes out to you so much - I will never forget that huge shock and grief and I can imagine what you are going through. At first my friends thought I wouldn't want to talk about it but I did and it helped. Let all the grief out and PM me if you want to. Sending cyber hugs and much sympathy.
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It's a haunting experience, isn't it? :( I'm unsure at this point if another horse would help, or whether it would be unfair on Rodney, me, and the new one.

I doubt I'll find another one who will "tie up" on the yard without a headcollar or leadrope, doesn't have to be "led" anywhere, he'll follow, will come whinnying to call every time, and will try their heart out at everything for me. He was unbroken when I bought him, and under saddle, he never refused a jump. Anything I pointed him at he would go over, even if he completely messed the striding up. If I asked him to hack out alone, he's pretty much go "okay, if you say so, mum :)". He was the most honest, friendliest, soppiest guy out there, and he's gone.

I've never had a connection like that with any horse in the past. I'd turn him out, and he'd just stick by me. Wherever I went, he went with me... to the car, into the tackroom, to go looking for people... and he's gone.

:(
 
When I lost my big horse (whom I had had since he was born) I lasted just four months before getting another horse - I couldn't stand just existing in a great void, and the horse I have now was in need of a home for life. It was odd at first - you do tend to compare even if you don't mean to - but I love the one I have now so very much. You never run out of love, it expands to cover whatever you treasure(d) in your life. Replacing a horse does not mean you love that horse any less than you ever did. I can vouch for that. Give yourself time and see what happens. xx
 
ShadowFlame
I was so very sad and so sorry to read the passing of your beautiful cob Rodney.

At least you were there with him and he had the best care at the time and as you say he passed away peacefully. You also have the lovely memory of hacking in the sunshine with him beforehand.

Think of those happy times and moments and celebrate with joy that he was a part of your life :) and how lucky you have been to have owned him.

Dwell on the happy moments but cry when you need to – this is so important when you are grieving. Make sure you have friends you can talk to when you feel the need.

Rodney has etched a place for himself in your heart and you will never forget him.

My thoughts are with you at this sad time.
 
Oh love. I cannot think of words to say but wanted you to know how truly sorry I am to hear about your boy. Stay strong lovely x x x
 
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