Sad day

had xray lunch time
yes we are talking about my mare xray showed bone dying drastically in the last few weeks she was doing so well.


I love her more than life itself, I cant cope anymore August I had my beloved cat run over, then some biotch next door forced me to sell my dun mare now this

shysmum said:
Oh no, whatever's happening, it sounds awful. I suspect Tango has taken a turn for the worse ?

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No tango i mean Tango's mum friend on here
 
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Leviathan said:
had xray lunch time
yes we are talking about my mare xray showed bone dying drastically in the last few weeks she was doing so well.


I love her more than life itself, I cant cope anymore August I had my beloved cat run over, then some biotch next door forced me to sell my dun mare now this
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Oh heck, leviathan. I am so sorry. You have done everything humanly possible for your girl. I really do know how hard it is to pull the plug. Those we love the most, we hang on to for dear life. You poor thing. I am gutted for you.
 
Hey love - have a hug, i know it sounds hollow - but i do understand, i really do.

Take no notice of the folk next door, they dont matter.

I am sure you have got the best interests of your horse at heart, and i am sure that you and the vets are well aware of what treatment is available.

Alternativley

If you have done everything you can, everything that is kind to do, then you will have to be brave for her sake. She needs you now to be her best friend, and do what is right for her.

I am so sorry to hear about your cat, and i truely know how it feels when you are helpless when your horse is ill.

Just deal with one thing at a time - your poorly horse is priority, then you, then the rest of the world.

The darkest hour is often just before dawn.
 
I can only echo GW and Wagtail, from your posts you have done everything possible for your mare and she couldn't have asked for a more caring owner. Stay strong for her sake, and if the worst comes to the worst, know that you have done all you can. xxx
 
Hey chuck, you still up ?

Worried about you... but i have to go to bed now, sorry but in plaster so have to do as i am told.

thinking about you and your little girl -godbless both of you

GW
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OP, I hope you are ok?
Truely, ignor the people next door, and talk to people on here if you need support.
Thinking of you and your mare
Kx
 
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Feel ill - migraine - Can't believe I will lose my gal. Her looking at me through window big soft kind eyes. She tried so hard to fight it but the bone infection getting worst.


2012 been an awful year. My eyes are swollen through crying my stomach hurts from cramps. Want to take her pain away or go with her over the rainbow.:(:(
 
Leviathan said:
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Feel ill - migraine - Can't believe I will lose my gal. Her looking at me through window big soft kind eyes. She tried so hard to fight it but the bone infection getting worst.


2012 been an awful year. My eyes are swollen through crying my stomach hurts from cramps. Want to take her pain away or go with her over the rainbow.:(:(
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You have to be strong for your girl now. She needs you so much to be strong. I am so sorry for you. I know this mare means the world to you. Have you booked the vet to PTS or are you seeing if anything else can be done?
 
I felt the same, and still do somedays - but that is not a nice thing to say to those that care about you in real life - i said the same to my hubby when i lost the big lad - and out of everything i have ever done that is the only time i have ever seen the hurt in his eyes.

Please you have so much love to give, and i know it will be hard to say goodbye, but if your little girl is struggling, she really needs you to be the best friend to her, and let her go before she starts to colic.

She loves you, she always will, but you must be strong for her.

I know its too soon to even think about loving something else and nothing will ever replace her, but you have obviosuly got so much to give - it would be a crime to deprive another needy animal in the future of your heart.

Come on, have a cry, but think what is the best for your little girl - you obviously love her so much - but sometimes you have to love them enought to let them go.

I am streaming here, its all to soon after loosing my horse of a lifetime- so trust me i dont say anything lightly.

GW
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Leviathan said:
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Feel ill - migraine - Can't believe I will lose my gal. Her looking at me through window big soft kind eyes. She tried so hard to fight it but the bone infection getting worst.


2012 been an awful year. My eyes are swollen through crying my stomach hurts from cramps. Want to take her pain away or go with her over the rainbow.:(:(
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so sorry, dont know what to say... didnt expect this..:( thinking of you.. xx
 
I've read a lot of your posts about the long battle you've had with your girl. And all this time you have given advice and support to others. You have given your horse every chance and have to be very proud of that fact. I'm sending you a very big hug at this very very difficult time. Please please be strong, your girl loves you very much and will always be in your heart. :( :( :(
 
Leviathan, sometimes the greatest gift we can give our horses is a release from pain and suffering. If she needs to be pts then that is the best thing that you can do for her, as much as we'd love to save our beloved horses it isn't always possible. Prolonging it to say goodbye isn't always in their best interests, she knows you love and care for her and animals don't fear passing over like humans do.

The greatest compliment you can pay your mare is to continue with the valuable experience she has given you to help other horses, she will still be waiting for you when it is your time to join her. xx
 
Thankyou all so much crying as I type. Vets have been amazing through this horrid journey. WE had turned a corner but then the blood cannot get down the the front of the bone and its got worst since last x ray.

I know allot on here said I should have PTS ages ago but there was hope then. Now I have exhausted all means of a lifeline the searching nursing and I cannot help her . I even found and amazing farrier who invented the imprint shoes and has dealt with every type of laminitic. He said there was hope till he saw xray.

I have a week or so with her on higher doses just so she can be pain free for a little while and spend an hour or so a day out in the field with her son.

This is the end of an era like with my little cat I am not allowed any more animals.

D has taken me places I never thought I would go to. I had one horse of a life time. Who died in 95 when D was young I love this mare as much have both of them tattooed on me.


I don't know how I will cope without her looking in at me through window passing her stable seeing it empty. Its right next to the house

I know its not a nice to to say GW Its how I feel.
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Look after your horses they are so precious and only here such a short time.


I am on my own most of the time till hubby comes home 8pm. He tries but he isn't the emotional type. He doesn't know what its like to get this emotional about an animal even tho he was there when we viewed her in 89 he will be there at the end too. Liveries are gr8 but they don't know what to say.

I know I have been not the easiest member here. I always put a wall up as I have been hurt so much in my life especially hard in the last year. I find it hard to open up so instead I act differently. So much has happened due to my mares illness the rugs been pulled out from under me so many times by so called friends in real life
Off to ball out again :(
 
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Oh you poor thing! And poor, poor mare. I don't know how you will cope dragging this out for a week or so. I know I wouldn't be able to, and then how to finally decide 'this is the day' and go through with it? I don't want to hurt you, as I know you must be in unbearable emotional pain, but for your sake and hers, wouldn't it be better to get it over with? I really am not trying to be mean. I am in tears reading about this. But you do not know what might happen if you delay it too long. Her whole bone could collapse. So sorry, but this really is my heartfelt plea to you. What an absolutely rotten thing to happen, and so unfair after all you have done to help her. xx
 
I know what you are saying:), but I need to do this give her some pain free time in a field with her son. Giving me time to get some nice picture videos and spend some precious loving time.:(:(

god life is so cruel sometimes.:(:(:(

I need to remember the last week seeing her free in field like a normal horse

vets are happy for me to give her this time based on xray
 
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I hope this will be of some comfort to you:

It amazes me just what a rollercoaster is, with regards to a pet when suffering a long term illness, disease.. On a good day, they look and seem as though they're winning the battle, on the bad days, you feel wrenched, worried whether they can actually cope much longer, then the next day they're good again, and you breathe a sigh of relief and feel good that you held out another day.
But, when the bad days out weight the good, and it seems your beloved friend is increasing struggling to pull themselves out of the depression which comes with their illness or disease, you wonder whether it's mentally too much as well as physically?
Making a pet comfortable when they're in pain, really does help them, even if you struggle to see the benefits, after all, they need the comfort and encouragement, just as much as a family member when they face a life threatening issue.
Letting a friend go after a long illness is not failing them, they've given it their all, and when the time comes they will let you know. Just remember when making that tough decision, you're allowing your friend to go peacefully, and just because they're no longer there in the flesh, doesn't mean they don't carry on in your heart.. remember they'll always be watching over you ♥
 
Flower - i know you will do the right thing for your mare when you need too i have no doubt about that.

May i ask why you wont be able to have anymore animals - i know its the last thing on your mind right now - but don't turn your back on the world. It does not work as well i know


GW
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thank you all for the kind PM's and kind words on here.

She looks at me while i walk round the yard. It is so hard knowing things and I find it hard to look into those big soft brown eyes. :(
 
Leviathan said:
thank you all for the kind PM's and kind words on here.

She looks at me while i walk round the yard. It is so hard knowing things and I find it hard to look into those big soft brown eyes. :(
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I am so sorry. It was devastating enough to lose my Crystal when I had but a short time to say goodbye, so I cannot imagine how torturous planning to pts a beloved horse must be.
You need to just remind yourself that she doesn't know what is happening and that for her it will be a release. It is you that must stay strong and keep well for your family and animals.
Rainbow bridge is a happy paradise. Huge hugs <<<<<<<<<>>>>>> to you both x
 
L, I know it's sad but would it not be better for your health and sanity to let her go as soon as possible rather than have it hanging over you for so long; that can't be good for you as you have demonstrated in your posts on here? If she's in pain she'd thank you for it too and they have no conception of what is going to happen; she doesn't know that you're giving her a last few weeks, she's just enduring what's happening to her now and how she feels; you really do have to let her go for her sake even if it's not for yours.
 
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