Saying goodbye to my trusted friend

mypegasus

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Tomorrow morning my little Lancashire Heeler Toby who has been in my life for just under 14 years will walk across the rainbow bridge.

About 3 weeks ago he was diagnosed with a growth on/in his prostate - we took a wash from it which showed he had a heavy load of E Coli. At the time measurements of the growth were taken.

On Monday my friendly vet ultrasound scanned his prostate again and the growth has significantly increased in size.

He is currently happy but obviously in some discomfort especially when passing faeces. He’s also struggling to sleep at night.

It’s taken a lot of soul searching but I don’t want him to suffer and to have dignity. So tonight he will be thoroughly spoiled.

He has been with me through thick and thin and has coped with me leaving my husband and buying my own house. He’s been my rock what has kept me getting up in the morning at times and I don’t know what I’m going to do without him.
 
Doing the right thing for an animal can be so painful, can't it?

I am sure that you are doing the best thing for Toby and that you can put all your experience with him into giving another dog a good home when you are ready.
 
My heart goes out to you Mypegasus , making that phone call to the vets last year for one of mine was the hardest thing i have ever done but he went quietly in the sunshine after a sausage sandwich and i knew i had done the right thing, as are you. xxxxxxxxx
 
Thinking of you and Toby tonight and tomorrow.
It is hard to let them go but so right to make sure he is pain free and keeps his dignity.
 
what a horrible decision to have to make but better before he is too uncomfortable. he is a good age and i am sure he has had a great life with you. look after yourself and try to remember all the good times....hugs!!!!
 
It's never easy but just remember that is the last gift you can give them, freedom from suffering. He won't know anything except going off to sleep, you on the other hand will be grieving for some time so be nice to yourself and remember that's what it is.
And what you are going to do without him is pay him the great compliment of saying "that was great, let's do it again" and home another pup who needs you
 
I am so sorry you are having to make this last selfless act for Toby. I have a heeler, they are wonderful little dogs. I hope in time you are able to look back on your memories with a smile not sadness. You will be in my thoughts tomorrow.
 
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