Don't know which is worst, when you lose them young and you can't help thinking of all that could have been, or when you lose them old and you are so used to them always being there and all the things you do together.
The only thing worse would be to not having had the chance to love them at all.
RIP.
Thank you everyone, and Ovidius I am so, so sorry for you
. As days go, this one has been pretty horrible.
Jill's body was finally collected this afternoon.
It has been odd this afternoon as I know she is gone, but I keep looking for her in with "her" babies that she doted on so much. The farm is rather glum this evening, all of the boarders who have been up today have been particularly saddened by the passing of Little Jill; she was always an absolute favourite with everyone, probably because she was so small but had such a huge personality and really was the most caring little creature around.
We have nearly lost Little Jill twice before, those times she was pivotted over the fence by the bigger yearlings and although her injuries were not nice, they were not life=threatening in themselves. Sadly Jill used to go into shock if she injured herself. Both times I have managed somehow to keep her alive until the vet could arrive and treat her, this time sadly the vet was not able to come in person although he did have some medication left out for me to collect. I am sure that shock played a massive part in her demise, along with not having the vet available to help her when she needed him most.
I had to have a cattle vet come out this morning to euthanise her; horse vet was still away
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Life goes on though eh? I've stopped sobbing now thankfully and I hope tomorrow will be brighter.