So Down, Everything getting on top of me ... and not in a good way ;)

[Winklepoker]

Oh boo hoo for me... spoilt little cow has her own pony, lorry and matchy - what ever could be wrong!!!

I dont want to come across the wrong way and have even more things to be depressed about but I work so hard to keep me and my boy in nice things, lessons, fluffy dead sheep, etc. often working 2, 3 or even 4 jobs to keep it up. My horse is relatively new to me (3 months) so again I should not be expecting miracles. I just feel so down and empty.
I sold a quirky little mare to buy him who I miss so very much, which I guess isnt helping. I love him, I genuinely do but sometimes, just knowing he wont load makes me want to sob my heart out. I do understand that because of what happened it will take time but I am somewhat impatient and feel like things are passing us by.

Schooling this morning in prep for tomorrows flat lesson was rubbish, I was rubbish, the surface was rubbish, the stupid ambling cat was rubbish... Please someone get me out of my black hole of misery! Or I might just have to go and spend more hard earned money on something totally unnecessary.

Doesnt help that I have my period, husband is out on the ale all weekend and have just scoffed a whole pack of Jammie dodgers sob sob, scoff scoff, sob!! Help me oh faithful HHO, help me before its too late, scoff!

 

[AmyMay]

Can always be difficult with a new horse, especially when you miss the old one.

Smile - tomorrow will be better

 

[Annagain]

Save the money you spend on impulse buys (they don't really make you happy for very long do they?) and put it towards some help with the loading issue. Just making the decision to take control of a problem and do something positive about it makes me feel a lot better. Not to mention how good it feels when you finally crack it.
Good luck. New horses are never easy, took me 18 months to settle properly with mine when I first had him. He was fine - I was the problem!

 

[Firewell]

Boo boo .

Don't be sad, you'll get it sorted. I miss Vay tons sometimes. If Jae is ever naughty I think 'Vaya would NEVER have done that' lol, I conveniently forget all the tough times .

I had a crap schooling session this morning too. I felt so stiff and wonky like a totally rubbish rider, the surface was rubbish too and when Jae tripped into canter I got really cross and shouted 'for gods sake just pick your bloody feet up!!!' poor pony. My new pad was slipping back and dissapearing under my saddle which was really peeing me off, why can't stuff just fit!!!

I've put it down to a miserable grey, Rainey day. Tomorrow will be a happy day .

Happy happy happy!!

 

[Winklepoker]

Hurrah.. at last a smile Thanks Amymay - tomorrow will be better! no Husband hogging the bed so decent sleep for me tonight AA - I had a man out to help this weekend just gone and will definitely have another session with him your are right... save for that. And FW as always my little partner in tantrums Loves you muchly esp. for the smilies x

 

[Paddy Irish]

Take a look at your own sig and tell yourself each and every pic represents a positive achievement!! It's taken 12 months to get to grips with my new boy and i still have black days.
Look upon the loading issues as a challenge that you are going to solve come hell or high water - that'll be the key to everything else falling into place...once you're out and about strutting your funky stuff with your beautiful horse, hubby will sober up pronto , cos he'll see he's got some competition for all your affection!

 

[Reindeer Rider]

Remember today, because when you no longer worry about him loading (and haven't given it a thought for ages) and you have just had a great lesson, which is down to weeks of hard work schooling, you will realise how far you have come. You will be proud of your achievements and maybe able to help someone in a situation you once found yourself in.

Also, your post was highlighted on the main Horse and Hound page, under what are people talking about in the forums, so that's got to make you smile today.