So, I think this is the end...

HeresHoping

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My boy has hurt himself again. If I am honest, he has been deteriorating over the last couple of weeks. But yesterday in the field he hurt himself hooning around and could hardly walk last night. He's even taken to fly kicking in the stable, something he hasn't done for months.

Just been speaking with the vet. He has been very honest and upfront. He thinks that his SI problems are as a result of an old injury that keep being re-aggravated. Looking at the photos taken when I tried him, he shows all the classic signs...tracking inside; pronounced jumper's bump, very light back end,

Potted history:
September last year, I wrote on here asking for advice about the bucking bronco acts. He's dropped a whole load of weight and looks like a TB off the track but without the muscle.
End September, saddle fitter tells me he's lame, not going to fit a saddle to a lame horse and the saddle I was riding him in (fitted in July) was pressing in all the wrong places, no wonder he bucked. Order new saddle - T8 as recommended, made to measure. Takes 8 weeks to come.
October 22 - very bad reaction to sedalin; pratting about with farrier whilst under the influence and he can't walk. Vet thinks he might have to shoot him then and there but manage to get him to the stable and dose of heavy painkiller administered. Xray spine and find KS at two points. Mild, however, and Cambs specialists say could probably be improved with lunging in pessoa/equiami.

4 weeks off with very gentle walking as SI joint - site of injury - needs to keep moving. Given the ok to start lunging. Start build up from 10 - 20 mins three x per week, etc. Time off during bad weather but try to do as much as possible. Building up gradually.

Odd times notice horse not quite fluid in movement - put down to inconsistency in training, cold, lack of turnout, etc. Many times when horse really, really, really badly behaved on lunge with amazing aerial acrobatics. Often a fight on the right rein. Very visible deterioration of behaviour in the EquiAmi, whilst quite happy in the Chambon.

Last couple times riding him - for all of 10 mins - he's felt really quite wobbly behind. Some days he'll feel strong, the next day he doesn't want to move forward at all.

So, coffee if you got that far, but the upshot is, vet has said that he's got some long term, low grade chronic SI condition and he's not going to pump him full of drugs because it won't stop the deterioration that will undoubtedly occur with any work.

I guess my questions are:
1) is there a blood bank in the South East
and 2) (wasn't there a sticky about this), what are my PTS options? I think I don't want him to be given an injection.
 
I'll be honest if he is in pain I wouldn't be looking at a life in a blood bank. It's not a life I would choose for a horse anyway as they get very little attention. My choice if I couldn't keep him and there were no viable treatment options would be PTS. If you don't want injection, I'd contact local kennels or knackerman rather than having a vet to do it.
 
Same as Happy Horse. If he is used to lots of attention, blood bank can't take away the pain, but might actually give him the added stress of a life so far removed from what he is used to.

For me, I always choose the local hunt kennels for PTS as they know absolutely what they are doing, the horse knows nothing and it is stress and pain free.

I am so sorry you have reached is point, but the good owner do the right thing and you sound like a really good owner.
 
Thank you. Is it normal to feel so practical about this? I guess I knew it was coming deep down. I had a wobble when he called to me when I got to the yard last night and I broke down when I spotted the mint aero on the shop shelf because he loves them. But otherwise I'm wondering if I have a heart of stone.

I will absolutely not make a decision until the vet has seen him again. The views conveyed were over the 'phone but we talked for almost an hour and went through everything. He (vet) saw him when he could barely walk and has looked in on him several times since.

Am I giving him enough chances? I think of all the times he's wobbled around the corners just leading him, and then I think it was ten days ago that he was cantering on the lunge without bucking on take off - in the Chambon. But then again, ask him to improve his hind leg action, and I can see the 'robotic' motion and the big fights we had. And why has he not muscled up over his loins despite lunging for nigh on 4 months? Gah. This is so hard.
 
You are doing the kindest thing that you can do for him. His future will be pain free and secure. Well done. My thoughts will be with you.

I too would choose the hunt, but don't worry too much if you cannot bring yourself to hold him. It will be quick and he won't know a thing.
 
Thank you. Is it normal to feel so practical about this? I guess I knew it was coming deep down. I had a wobble when he called to me when I got to the yard last night and I broke down when I spotted the mint aero on the shop shelf because he loves them. But otherwise I'm wondering if I have a heart of stone.

I will absolutely not make a decision until the vet has seen him again. The views conveyed were over the 'phone but we talked for almost an hour and went through everything. He (vet) saw him when he could barely walk and has looked in on him several times since.

Am I giving him enough chances? I think of all the times he's wobbled around the corners just leading him, and then I think it was ten days ago that he was cantering on the lunge without bucking on take off - in the Chambon. But then again, ask him to improve his hind leg action, and I can see the 'robotic' motion and the big fights we had. And why has he not muscled up over his loins despite lunging for nigh on 4 months? Gah. This is so hard.

I found that I treated my old girl's upcoming end with peculiar calm. I wanted her safely away before Bonfire night, and chose the actual day by looking at the weather forecast. Ringing the crem to pay in advance and give them the date and time was hard, but they were business-like and kind and the vets knew for several months what I was planning so when I called them it wasn't a surprise to them either and we could keep things practical. I knew I was doing the right thing at the right time but I was losing the single most important and best thing there has ever been(and probably will ever be) in my life. Only one person at the yard knew what actual day it was going to happen because I didn't want to be surrounded by well-meaning people trying to be kind. Dealing with it all alone was my way of staying strong. I can't tell you how I felt though when I went down to feed her in the morning and her happy little face lit up when she saw me. But when the vet arrived I was able to treat it as a normal visit, including automatically covering her eye with my hand when he put the sedative in, and when the crem van arrived to take her body away I told the driver that I hoped that for the first time in her life with me, she loaded without complaint or difficulty. I'm quite sure many people would think that very bizarre but she was gone and I was relieved it was over and had gone smoothly and calmly. Even now people think I seem to have got over it all easily but they don't see me at home sitting on the stairs below my favourite photograph of her, crying and just wanting to be able to stroke her ears and scratch her itchy bits as I had always done. But I have no regrets at taking the path I did. Yes it is hard, but you an already see that the good things don't outweigh the bad ones. My mind was made up when my old girl slipped slightly on the road while I was leading her out for some grass, and she fell flat on her face. She wasn't hurt but that was enough for me.
 
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