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benson21

benson21

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I am laying here on my bed folding up schedules for The Great Chart Happy Hack, and am finding it really hard to find enthusiasm to do it! I guess its because since the accident I am not at the yard, no horse, no real contact with many from there now. I know we raise money for a good cause but I am just not sure I want to do this anymore.
Sorry, pointless post, just feeling sorry for myself!
 
Thinking of you x I think after everything youve been through you are entitled to have a few down days, I have been following your posts and am always struck by your spirit and how you have coped so well with such an awful time. Cant offer anything to help Im afraid, I suppose you just have to go with it and hope that tomorrow is a better day, not very helpful I know. Take care of yourself and sending good vibes for you (((((((((((()))))))))))))).
 
You are entitled to be down after what you've been thru'. Do you have any horses now, are you gonna get another, what are your thoughts?
 
No, havent got a horse at the moment, gonna see one next week, although I cant ride at the moment because of my back. There were 2 of us involved in theaccident and I just hope I can get on as well as Tammy who has another horse and is riding again. Like I say, a huge kick up the arse is needed!!!
 
benson21 said:
I am laying here on my bed folding up schedules for The Great Chart Happy Hack, and am finding it really hard to find enthusiasm to do it! I guess its because since the accident I am not at the yard, no horse, no real contact with many from there now. I know we raise money for a good cause but I am just not sure I want to do this anymore.
Sorry, pointless post, just feeling sorry for myself!
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i do feel sorry for you, but hang on in there.i assume you are on the mend, but consider this-there is always someone worse off( i'm told this all the time!) i am now wheel chair bound, have been so for 4 years, everything scanned and NO diagnosis as yet! i have 2 gorgeous horses that i now cannot ride(hubby does) this is a neurological problem which came on overnight, literally, it is gradually worsening with no use of my right arm and leg. i wont ramble on as you dont know me, point of all this is you will get better, keep optimistic, there are bad days but good ones too, i feel sorry for myself at times, bawl my eyes out, but there is always another day- so, sorry to maybe bore you- just trying to help,chin up and look foreward to the future.
 
i really want to write you a big long, slightly annoying post about how amazing you are... but i'm on my lunch and late back to work so instead i'll just say:

you're doing SO well, and you're more than entitled to a down day. chin up, and think of how lucky you are to still be here, and have so many people rooting for you.

(((hugs))) xxx
 
So here's the kick up the backside. Benson21 you have many friends on here, who have looked out for horses that might suit you, you chop and change what you are looking for. Sit back get yourself well and give yourself time, not only have you had a bad injury. But you lost BENSON, give yourself time to grieve the lose of a very good equine friend, just cause your friend has been able to move on,doesn't mean you have to match her pace. Benson will push the right horse in your direction in time. My Kestrel did.:):):):):)
 
You had better do it missy, I so enjoyed the Happy Hack last year, and fully intend on doing it this year! :p:D:eek:

In all serious, I do hope you feel perkier very soon! And hope to see you at the Happy Hack! Look for the Cob and Fjord, you can’t miss us, lol!
 
Thanks you lot! Feeling much better tonight, pulled myself together and stopped feeling sorry for myself!
 
Oops! I just cross posted (I'm always thinking of you when I see a sturdy sane looking horse) - I hadn't seen this thread. I hope you are feeling a bit perkier, since all the kicks up the butt the above peeps have given you :)
 
I don't know you but you obviously have courage, I am arthitic and am mostly confined to groundwork, get yourself a horse and take comfort from it, I can't ride my boy as often as I would like but enjoy just sitting in the yard weather permitting, making a fuss of him and planning our next hack, good luck in your recovery
 
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