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Silly post really! Just need to air it as there is no one here to talk to in RL you guys will have to hear it instead.
Just went out and cleared out the horses stables for the last time, took rugs and haynets down, emptied water buckets and cleared everything out. I just shut the doors on my stables for the last time...and I feel really sad about it, it was very hard to do :(
Not to mention I am now physically totally knackered! :rolleyes:
 
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Gosh won't you lot thank high heaven when I start posting positive stuff again!! I'm starting to feel like a right old whinge bag! Sorry!
 
I done the same on Saturday. Sorted through all of Bensons and Charlies stuff, rugs, buckets etc etc. its taken me 6 months to do it. But I realise now my memories wont fade because his buckets arnt there. It does get easier hun, just be kind to yourself. xx
 
(((((hugs))))) I am so sorry for your loss.

I know how you feel. I lost my boy in May. He'd had an amazingly long innings and we knew it was coming, so no great shock, but it felt like the end of an era and was all so sad. I thought I was coping really well, until a few days later I went to sort out all his rugs and things, and I picked up his headcollar and burst into tears.

It's all so sad, but we have to try to be strong and focus on the future and positive things.
 
what a shame, so hard to do. I still hate to see my wee mintys stable missing his hay net and bits and pieces. It still has some bedding in it as that is where the dog goes when I am riding. His nameplate is still there and his wee fleece is still over the door. I have given away his bridle and all of his rugs and some of his head collars etc. I know how you feel though and you are not a whinger, you have been through such a dreadful time recently, it is no wonder that your posts and not all bubbly and bouncy. Everything will work out for you.
 
((hugs))

as Benson says, the memories will still be there. It is hard to find your stables smell no longer of that familiar horse smell but of nothingness isn't it?

I remember cleaning out my old pony's stable after he was pts, and having to disinfect it with jeyes fluid as it was better than the empty, cold, damp stone smell it had after i'd cleaned it.
 
Oh Vissy it is hard and will be for a while. I lost Haddy 29th April and have only just taken his bed out. I was sobbing the whole time as I felt I was removing all traces of him. I still can't bring myself to wash his rug as it still smells of him. Writing this has reduced me to tears. :(
I am assured it gets easier but for you and I and everybody who has lost a good 4 legged friend I fear it will take some time yet.
For me tears seem to sneak up on me when I am least expecting them. I know what I did was right, as I am sure you do, but man it hurts.
 
Hugs darling.

I still have Tiggy's rug, the last one she wore. I'm keeping it - when we move and I have the home I want, I'm going to have it on a favourite chair where I'll curl up and read a book, wrapped up in her rug. I'll also plant a tree, a spreading oak tree that will stand for so many years to come. I have her last two shoes on a plaque - D made it for me for my Birthday last year, so I can touch it when I walk past and think happy thoughts.

More hugs hun, and a large hot chocolate with curly chocolate sprinkles.
 
Oh you lot! honestly making me a sniffling wreck at work again :( It is so sad and does make you feel like you're removing all traces of them and the last place they were.

Give your other chap a hug and remind yourself what a good deed you did for them.

The hard part is over now - concentrate on lovely memories of them. {{{{hugs}}}}
 
We lost our beautiful boy on 23rd last month and I have only just washed out his field bucket and feed tubs. I cried all the time. Crying again now:( I know from last time that it does get better but like others have said it hurts so much and takes you by surprise from time to time. We have a shrub with Sammys ashes in the base of the pot and now will get one for Jesper. We have shoes from both of them and my daughter has a bracelet from Sammys tail and will probably get another one from Jespers. You won't wipe them away when you muck out - they will stay with you forever anyway x
 
sending you huge (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))). It was sooooooooo hard to do that when I sold my last horse, let alone for it to be under those circumstances. Hope you are ok sm x
 
Time does make it easier - I'm a fine one to talk though, still have a headcollar and rug outside one of my stables and poor boy was pts in December...................
 
((((((((hugs))))))) I still havn't started packing for my move on sat. Well I've done some of my room but just feel sick about doing Lucys stuff. Yet again I saw someone had used another thing of Lucys on another horse. It was her leather Headcoller. It's obvious it's hers as it has her name on it but they still used it anyway :mad:. Well when I saw it had been moved this morning I just burst into tears :( Luckly noone was around. Don't worry about coming on here and moaning. Thats all i seem to be doing at the mo to :(
If you ever want to message me feel free. I'm always here to listen. I think you are very brave, I hope i am as strong as you when i need to pack Lucys stuff. (but once again i'm sat on the computer when i should be doing it and now feel sick from just talking about it)
Anyway i'll stop rambling on. My PM box is always open if you need it.
 
It's been two years since I lost my first pony.
I have moved on, I miss him so very much, he was my best friend.
I couldn't face all his stuff to begin with and it made me cry to see it.
His old headcollar is still in my car, nowadays I look at it and smile at the memory of him.
I have reused a few bits and pieces of his for my current horse but kept the favourite rugs of his, door sign and his headcollar he had worn for 6 years.
It gets easier, although it is awful at first.
One day you will see something that reminds you of him and you will think of all the good times you had and what a fantastic character he was.
x
 
Thanks guys. I feel better this evening I think. I gave a few bits and pieces away earlier, old meaningless headcollars that sort of thing, I gave Wills saddle to the girl that rode him for me and her pony, they needed one to jump in and it fits perfectly. Rugs I have sorted through and sold 2 of Wills rugs to people at the yard, have a load that I'm washing that were Cats and I will hand on to Fred. I didn't want to get rid of any of them but realistically I dont have space to keep it all in the new cottage and especially the smaller stuff that belonged to Will is more than likely never going to be useful to me in the future. Bridles and their special headcollars (the ones I remember them in) I will keep I think.
 
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) when I had to do Dougals, it was the hardest thing ever. My mum tried to do it for me and I got so mad at her and told her I would do it in my own time. But she packed up all my riding clothes from my wardrobe and proceeded to loose them all in the roof somewhere (:rolleyes:). But I really do feel for you having to go through that. It was so hard and having had D on my doorstep too, I had to face it everyday, knowing he was not there. Feel free to PM if it helps. Your very brave. It is amazing how strong you are being.
 
We lost our two ponies within the space of just over two months, this was nearly 4 years ago. My daughter asked just the other day why I still keep their saddles (I also have their bridles) as they don't fit her new pony? Apart from the fact I would get very little for them, I just can't bring myself to get rid of them. Luckily I have the space to keep them, and each time I look at them they bring a smile to my face as I remember Poppy and Robin. it was very hard at first when we lost them but now I think only of them in a happy way. Stay strong as time will help you cope.
 
I feel for you I really do... its very very hard xxx I still cant bear to pick up my big lads headcollar from when he was PTS 2 weeks ago. Its exactly in the same place the vet left it...
 
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