Thinking of You Today CPTrayes

So sorry fo your loss, but glad you had the resilience to do the right thing.
Came across this poem on FB yesterday and although it mentions paws, not hooves, the meaning is the same....


LAST NIGHT
I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you; I smiled and said, "it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be with me.
- Author Unknown
 
I'm sorry but I have only just caught up on what has happened.

It sounds a very nice way to go for the old boy to go and he was at home with his family too. RIP Jazz, safe journey.

Healing vibes sent a plenty to Ace and another((hug))to keep you going and as brave and strong as you have been.
 
I wish he had been old Elsbells but he was only 10 :(

Thankyou everyone for your kind thoughts. I had a good night's sleep and Ace is improved this morning. We are off for some xrays soon. I'm thinking of having his neck done while he is there and sedated for the leg ones. It's awful knowing that time bomb was inside Jazz's neck since he was born, I would have changed so much about how I managed him if I had known.
 
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Late to this, but just wanted to send hugs and support,
RIP Jazz, sleep peacefully chap.

Massive fingers crossed for Ace getting well asap.

Take care of yourself too. xxx
 
Ive only just caught up with this.
Many many heartfelt sympathies for you CPT, having lost 2 of mine, and in the last 9 months being there for 2 of my friends and their lads, I can honestly say that the hardest part is over, now all you have to do is remember the brilliant times and the look in Jazz's eyes when you fed or brushed or just cuddled him, the look that told you he knew how much he was loved!

I will keep my fingers crossed for Ace too, hopefully a joint flush and some antibiotics will clear the job up for you xx
 
You have all my sympathies and admiration, you did the kind and responsible thing for your boy.

Got everything crossed for Ace.

Hope you are feelig better soon and remembering the good times xx
 
CPT you could not have changed a thing, no matter how you managed him, so no beating yourself up for that please, you cannot blame yourself for any of this.

It hurts to lose a horse but you must take comfort in the fact that you did your absolute best for him.
 
Heaven help me where does this end? Ace is now in hospital being blitzed with antibiotics for a massive infection around the hock joint which might, or might not, be in the joint capsule. A perfectly simple looking little graze, barely skin deep, turns out on scans and xrays to have a two inch deep pinhole puncture wound in it. How he did that, we will never know. There is nothing in his field that he could have done it on. No barbed wire, nothing.

We aren't going to know for a day or two whether the joint is infected, because it can't possibly be tapped without putting the needle through infected flesh and that would be plain stupidity. On the plus side, there isn't any bone damage on xray and the joint fluid looks normal on scan. The probe goes right to the bone, but hits between the two main pockets and we are hopefull that whatever caused it did not puncture either of them.

I feel strangely un-upset about this, rather vacant. I guess nothing horse-wise is worse than losing Jazz, this is just a little icing on the cake.

More finger crossing please.
 
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ion around the hock joint which might, or might not, be in the joint capsule. A perfectly simple looking little graze, barely skin deep, turns out on scans and xrays to have a two inch deep pinhole puncture wound in it. How he did that, we will never know. There is nothing in his field that he could have done it on. No barbed wire, nothing.
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This happened to one of my horses, innocuous looking puncture that I didn't think too much of - but became quite hot by the following day. Vet up, horse almost in hospital to receive intravenous AB's. It's almost the most expensive vet fee that I've had.
 
Hoping everything turns out well for Ace. What a run of bad luck you're having at the time when you needed it least.
Very sorry to hear about Jazz, although the image of his last morning in the sunshine was very poignant. Bittersweet.
 
Oh heck! In a small way I suppose feeling numb from Jazz still is a good thing,

Fingers crossed all the way for Ace, at least you must be getting all the rotten luck out of the way in one go.
 
rather late into this.

So sorry to hear about Jazz. :( RIP lovely boy.


Fingers crossed for Ace, god only knows how they do these things to themselves! Hope you get some better news soon.

x
 
Really sorry for the sad loss of Jazz. You did the very best for him and he is now pain free. Sending lots of healing vibes for Ace. Wishing him all the best for a full recovery. x
 
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Heaven help me where does this end? Ace is now in hospital being blitzed with antibiotics for a massive infection around the hock joint which might, or might not, be in the joint capsule. A perfectly simple looking little graze, barely skin deep, turns out on scans and xrays to have a two inch deep pinhole puncture wound in it. How he did that, we will never know. There is nothing in his field that he could have done it on. No barbed wire, nothing.
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O Bl00dy hell. I'm sure he'll be ok but what a lot of stress for you to deal with at the moment.

Chin up ducky. Thinking of you.
 
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Heaven help me where does this end? Ace is now in hospital being blitzed with antibiotics for a massive infection around the hock joint which might, or might not, be in the joint capsule. A perfectly simple looking little graze, barely skin deep, turns out on scans and xrays to have a two inch deep pinhole puncture wound in it. How he did that, we will never know. There is nothing in his field that he could have done it on. No barbed wire, nothing.

We aren't going to know for a day or two whether the joint is infected, because it can't possibly be tapped without putting the needle through infected flesh and that would be plain stupidity. On the plus side, there isn't any bone damage on xray and the joint fluid looks normal on scan. The probe goes right to the bone, but hits between the two main pockets and we are hopefull that whatever caused it did not puncture either of them.

I feel strangely un-upset about this, rather vacant. I guess nothing horse-wise is worse than losing Jazz, this is just a little icing on the cake.

More finger crossing please.
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I have had exactly this happen with both my current horses and both are okay. My mare was exactly the same. A tiny scratch. Thought nothing of it, and then a massive infection and a hole right through into the joint discovered. No doubt about it as synovial fluid was shooting several feet out of her hock as she moved!. Probably saved the joint capsule as it happened and she made a completel recovery. My gelding was kicked two years ago on his hock and had no visible wound at all, just the massive football sized swelling. A tiny scratch was only found once he was at the hospital, but it was very deep. He ended up having an operation to flush the joint and remove a bone fragment. Again, he made a full recovery. So here's hoping Ace will do too.
 
Hells bells I hope the little Ace makes a swift recovery, I have everything crossed for you and sending positive hugs and thoughts x
 
Only just caught up with this and v sorry about Jazz. Am reading with a tear in my eye as it's the second anniversary of my boy going. We were lucky enough to have sunshine and I'm glad you did too - nice to have their sun on their backs when they depart.
I will keep everything crossed from Ace - your turn for some good luck now!
 
So very very sorry for your loss. RIP Jazz. xx
Everything crossed for Ace. Lots of healing (((((((((((((vibes)))))))))) and ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) for you. x
 
The people on the Yahoo groups I contacted all applaud your bravery and send on their best wishes.

A woman called Laurel from the US wants me to send you a hug too ;)
 
I am a bit late to this so I just wanted to say that I am so sorry about Jazz, you must be devastated :(

I am sending some healing vibes to Ace and I hope things improve soon.
 
Really, really hoping that the prognosis for Ace is a positive one. God knows, you need a bit of good in your life right now.

Sending healing <<<<<vibes>>>>> for Ace, and a few reassuring (((((hugs))))) for you. Don't forget we're all here for you, and willing and hoping for good news soon.

Crossing everything crossable for you both.

C xx
 
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