Those of you who have had to PTS

I do not feel guilty about having my darling Jess PTS.

She was an athlete and her injury would never have allowed her to enjoy life to the full again.

Those that read my posts would know i did absolutely everything i could of....the costs and hours that went into keeping her going were extraordinary. And i'd do it all again if it meant she was returned to me.

However i do feel a bit guilty about the injury..which we assume was an old shoe nail in the field..may not of been..may of been something silly like a piece of sharp wood..we will never know...but i always wonder if i had scoured the fields with a metal detector...etc etc..silly i know as her field was 22 acres..but i still do wonder about it.
 
I had my boy PTS last month. I bought him in from the field to ride on the Friday, didn't feel "right" so didnt ride, got vet out Saturday and had him PTS following his collapse on Weds. He was diagnosed with acute myloid Leukaemia - the vet prepared me for bad news but we were not expecting such news from his bloods. I am wracked with guilt at times - what did I miss, where were the signs, why didn't I notice etc etc, but I'd had my boy 14 years and hadn't noticed anything until that Friday when he just didnt seem himself. I've not thought it was the wrong decision once; seeing my best friend down in a panic having not eaten/drunk/pooed for 4 days, having lost all his spark for life and the fight gone from his eyes I wanted the vet to get to him asap. He went quickly and peacefully with his head on my lap, surrounded by his human family.

It's taken until yesterday for me to have a proper cry over him. We all deal with things in our own way at our own time, there is no right or wrong way to grieve.

Hugs to everyone on here, and RIP to all our horses x x x
 
Having a horse PTS doesn't come easy for anyone and not a desion anyone in their right mind wants to take. I've always wished for my horses to die in their sleep, but they don't. So no I have no guilty feelings about having them put down as I know that I have done my best by them, I've never thought about selling them, as they are with me for life and what horses I have when I die are covered in my will.
 
A part of me will always feel guilt.

Just one of the emotions you go through sadly. Some days it's comforting knowing it was the right choice, other days its anger, guilt, a great sadness... The list is endless and I can't begin to explain it.

Time does make it better I reassure you. I lost my boy 3 months ago, never thought it'd happen to us or I'd be here typing it. It does get easier to come to terms with but I wouldn't say you will 'get over' the loss.

Sorry for your loss :(
 
Its 2 weeks and a day since I had my old girl PTS. I have no guilt whatsoever because I know I did absolutely the right thing and at the right time. You can't fight the effects of time, but you can stop it in its tracks which is what I did. She had lived on borrowed time for 16 out of the 18 years I'd had her and it had cost me over £35K. My only goal was to allow her to live a normal life despite her epilepsy and we succeeded. It never got her and she lived long enough to develop normal conditions of old age. I cry only for my own loss, because she was everything.
 
Funny.. Guilt for the actual PTS (4 months ago...was arthritis) is one thing I don't feel. Maybe years before I could spotted things sooner, done something different, not trotted on roads, been more precious about bad ground... But at the end of the day it would have caught up with her.

But the PTS I am certain it was the right thing, especially with the muddy wet winter we are going to have, the mud that's even around now would have made her so miserable, another 4 months down the line and she would have been depressed and in agony, her spark was already fading.

I know I did the right thing by her and I did it for her because I love her so much, but doesn't make me miss her any less or make it hurt any less.
 
I dont feel guilty, for the loss of my boy. I miss him more than I can ever describe, but PTS is the final gift we as owners can offer them, you dont have to be guilty for that.
Love and hugs. xxx
 
I've had oldies put down & although I felt sad that they were dead, I didn't feel quilty as it was their time.
But recently I had a younger horse put down due to a field accident & I feel terrible about it, she was a hot headed tb who I didn't think would cope well with an extended period of rehab. She would have needed surgury to be saved & I decided that I didn't want to put her through it, my head tells me that it was the right thing to do but my heart tells me that I'm a horrible person who had her horse killed for nothing.
I dreamt about her last night, I'd sold her to a riding school that treated her cruelly so I had to buy her back!
In time I'm sure I will be able to look back & know I did the right thing.
 
horsemadmum1 said:
Turkana you knew your horse and you knew what was right for her, you did the right thing x
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I know you're right, I had to make a quick decision & did what I felt was the right thing, a decision which the vet agreed with, I've never had to make a life & death decision for a young horse before, so it's been especially hard to deal with.

Thanks for your kind words.
 
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