Today i lost my Soul Mate :-((((

luckilotti

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Today i lost my soul mate. I have numerous horses, and i have a different bond with each of them but my god, William and i could read each others minds, worked in perfect harmony and would have died and killed for each other!

I bought William in April 1998, he was locked in a dark cow shed as his owner (who is a M&M judge) had bought him for her husband off a friend, well, they couldn’t manage him, a girl on the yard had taken him on, and he scared the life out of her so he was locked away and put up for sale. As a ‘no fear’ teenager , that was it, i was having him after having a ride and blast on the edge of Saddleworth moors.

The rest well, we had a blast! No-one else could really ride him without him taking the p**S out of them, he had a reputation locally and when i had an injury and couldn’t ride for a while, we couldn’t find anyone to take the ride on (a few tried but then declined!) but for me, he never ever put a hoof wrong. My YO at the time tried to get my parents to agree to have William ‘disposed’ of as he was a danger to other horses and himself, but he never did anything against me and went out of his way to protect me – there are so many stories i could share, all of which make me smile. I have always said he had a ‘strong personality and character.’

Fast forward a few years and he was retired in summer 2005 when i had returned from 6 months in the USA and i had hacked him out 3 times and just felt that his bone spavin was at that point whereby he was starting to struggle. I think this probably upset him a little as he loved to be ridden.

He had a good retirement and never wanted for anything, we had a few worrying moments when we though that time had come, we once actually had the vet out to PTS but he suddenly had a fight in him and the vet talked us out of it. (some may recall my posts).
I had the vet out for him just last Thursday for his teeth to be rasped and the vet couldn’t believe how well he was doing, despite having an old mouth and quite a few teeth with movement.

Then today, i was at home whilst my mum went to the yard, the twins were happily eating their breakfast whilst i was on the phone changing and renewing my horse insurance. I had a call to get there ASAP and pretty much hung up on mu local NFU office. I got there a few minutes too late. He got down in the field and didn’t get up. He took his last breath in my mums arms. I doubt the insurance will pay out anything – i really don’t care but when my mum called them to apologise for me having to go mid conversation they said i should claim so the vet came out to confirm the death, thankfully due to his age NFU said a post-mortem isn’t required – i wouldn’t have let him have one. William had a bad heart murmur which was picked up 2 years ago, the vet thinks it may have been a heart attack with old age.

I know he had an amazing life whilst with me, but i feel so bad that this last week i haven’t seen him much as one of my little boys had surgery on Monday hence he is meant to be resting to recover, so my mum has been doing most of my jobs for me with me just going down to tend to my stallion.

I always said once William had gone that was it – i was done with horses and well, i feel like that now but would have to keep my 1st pony and old loan pony (she is now 24 and was attached at the hip to William and hasn’t coped today so i expect her to be next).

There is so much i could say about my wonderful William but i am so numb. I knew it would happen one day, but i expected to be the one to say when and where. He tried to make it easy for me thought and will now be running and jumping from cloud to cloud with my late ISH mare who is was good friends with.

Rest in peace William and you better be waiting for me when it’s my time, I will always love you so much and there will never be another that comes anywhere as close to you – my best friend for life x
 
I'm so very sorry to hear this Luckilotti, William sounds like the most incredible horse. Small consolation I know but at least he passed peacefully at home. Take care of yourself. Sleep well William x
 
I am so sorry to hear this but he is now pain free and running freely in the great meadow above and he'll be there waiting for you.

Big hugs.... ((((( ))))))

R.I.P William xx
 
So sorry to hear this. Not many horses pass away like this, but at least you know that he went when he was ready and he took that decision way from you. He looked after you even at the end. My thoughts are with you. x
 
Sounds to me like he found the right owner in this life:)

I am sorry for your loss, but hang on to the fact that you achieved so much for and with him... and the fact that you loved him so, means you will give other horses the chance to be loved by you too. I reckon he'd like that.
 
Im so sad for you and i know your heart must be breaking, the day we all dread has arrived for poor william but take comfort in the fact that he had an amazing life and you never gave up on him. He'll now be your angel watching down on you and your family and making sure you're doing ok.... stay strong for your boys x
 
Oh no! Gosh, so sorry :( I do think he went in just about the very best way possible. At home and of his own accord. So few have the peaceful and calm Bridge crossing I bet he did. Try and be grateful for that

R.I.P. William
 
Thanks everyone.

he had a look in his eye though, he wasnt ready to go. My mum said he was trying to fight it which would have been typical of william. My nanna tried to fight death as she wasnt ready to go but when your times up, it's up i guess.

I'm stressing out as with a house move, decorating etc i cant find my William photo album. I've found a plaque with a copy of a painting on that an artist did for me though back in 2004, just before he was retired.

Hubby has just gone out to have his hair cut and handed me the mail as he went, its a card from the vets and the paperwork from the insurance so i am again sat here blubbering, I need to pull myself together as its my twins birthday party tomorrow and i have so much to do but my hearts gone from it all :(

I really want to give up horses now, hubby says he isnt going to let me give it all up that easily. i am not bothered if i never ride another horse again in my life though.

Thanks again for the messages.
 
Trust me, time will heal your broken heart. William will always be a part of you because of the connection you had. You were his salvation but, had it not been for you, his life would probably have ended much sooner and in very different circumstances. Sadly, there are many more Williams out there, in just as much need as he was. When the time is right, you will do for one of them what you did for William. He would want you to. People with such 'insight' are very rare and it would be a waste of your talent not to. Take care!
 
So very sorry. I am sure many people on here know exactly how you feel. Like the other posters have said, you should take solace in the fact he passed away at home with your mum. Agree with pintoarabian - think of all those other horses in the same situation as William. Right now, you probably don't even want to look at another horse, let alone ride one - but horses are great therapy. It is just a shame that when we need them most, they are gone. And if it helps at all, I am convinced there is a life after this - there must be in my opinion - our horses are far too selfless for this to be the end. Rest in peace William.
 
I'm really sorry for your loss :( I just lost my old horse two days ago so it is still very raw. I thought the world of him just like you did with William so I completely understand the emotions that you are going through. Don't be afraid to cry and just let it all out, it does seem to make you feel a bit better. I don't know if I'm going crazy but I talk to my old boy at night and have a teddy of him (it looks identical to him) that I used to comfort myself when he has been to the vets. I talk to that like I used to talk to my horse. I think I must be losing the plot but it honestly seems to help- I even woke up in the middle of the night last night when 'he' fell out of the bed!
 
Sorry to hear about William - Rest in peace sweet man.

I am sure you gave him the best life and he died at home surrounded by his horse and human family and by the sounds of it quickly and peacefully.

Take care and kindest wishes to you and your family x x
 
That is so sad to read but it sounds as if William had a wonderful life with you and wanted for nothing. You should be proud.
You will have many happy memories of him. Stay positive.
R.I.P. William (and look out for my Clippy!).
 
So sorry for your loss :( RIP William.

You gave him an amazing life, and he was well loved and looked after, which is all any horse can ask for xxx
 
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