RHGR
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Feeling hopeless and defeated. Pony has been rescoped again, glandular ulcers still there and some reddening on the squamous region again that wasn't there last time. Insurance money is very close to gone. Vet is a little stumped as she was confident we'd rescope and find nothing today. These vets don't seem hugely fond of the idea of misoprostal, said they've seen a few horses get worse and they aren't sure of the clinical significance of the glandular ulcers he has so worried it may make things worse and send us back to square one. There's discussion of possibly doing a lameness workup (with sensors) to rule out any mild lameness that may be causing pain. Suggested I get a Shetland to keep him company, that would be lovely but I don't have an extra £250 lying around every month for the livery for another one. He's on a livery yard but the only other horses that can share a field with him bully him. Yard owner keeps shifting our fields around so at the moment he doesn't even have a horse he can touch over the fence. He has then nearby that he can see easily, just can't physically touch. He gets adlib hay. He's not been in work besides some long reining in the past 2 weeks. He's on speedi beet and thunderbrooks healthy herbal. He gets essentially the science supplements gastrokind (I bought ingredients individually as half the cost of the ready made supplement). Vets are going to get back to me on Monday and discuss possible next steps. Couldn't help crying when I saw the ulcers on the screen this morning. For so many it seems to be a case of treat and they're fine. My last mare I had to put to sleep as after 2 years of trying we were getting nowhere and she was miserable. This guy seems happy enough in himself so don't know if we should just stop and just manage it best I can. I feel I can't do right for doing wrong, like there's no real answer. If I could just win the lottery and not have to stress about all the costs it would be fine. I'd sent him to the dick vet for a week to have everything done and check every inch of him, but I haven't won the lottery. I don't have endless money. I barely have enough as is! I want to curl up in a ball and cry. My pony doesn't deserve this, I just want him to be healthy and happy