Update from Gingerwitch

I'm another who has been following your thread, and although I haven't posted until now, I've felt your pain throughout. My heart lifted when I read that Big Lad was feeling better within himself. I worried for you, with having so much to do and having so little sleep. I felt pride in you for being a loving, caring and dedicated owner, who was there for your horse no matter what. I was pleased for you that you have such a kind, considerate and thoughtful OH, and that your new vet team worked with your farrier..beyond the call of duty.
I'm sitting here now with tears in my eyes and my heart in my stomach, knowing how it feels to have lost the fight.
Gingerwitch, you truly are one in a million. You did the very best for your horse that anyone possibly could. Please don't blame yourself, it wasn't your fault. It was Big Lad's time to go, and you stayed there with him right to the end.
(((((MASSIVE HUGS))))) to you and Mr Gingerwitch.
Rest In Peace Big Lad. Heaven needed another star to brighten the sky..Heaven chose you.
Run Free Big Man xxx
 
A big thanks to each and every one of you. The big lad certainly touched the hearts of the HHo;s, the vets and me and my wonderful husband.

I so so wish the outcome had been a good one, i had found upto 50k to fund his vets fees, the other half had found far far more - and we would have spent every last penny if only we could have given him a week or two munchin grass in a field.

We are numb, we are in shock - but the team of vets took up our challenge and have been stunning in the care, dedication of both the big lad and MR & MRS Gingerwitch.

Where we go from now - i dont know - my little lad is bemused, he knows big lad is gone - we let him find that out for himself - but can i honeslty bear to loose another ? I do not think i have the stomache to loose another magnificant pet - and he truley was just a 17hh hamster - i did not care if i never rode him again, to be in his presance was enough for me.

I hope he and i will one day be together.... i just hope its me he wants to find when my day comes - i just hope i did love him enough for him to want to be with me again

GW

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You did everthing and more for him. All of us who truly care about and appreciate our animals have, sooner or later, to care for them as they move through pain to tranquilllity. It is a dreadful journey for the owners, but also the last kindness you can give them. The animals ( hopefully ) drift calmly across the line between life and death, knowing they were loved til the last. They are now out of all pain. Ours continues.
I still mourn every animal I have lost to their death. The animals I have now will never replace any of them, but eventually become good companions who are cherished and cared for as well as their predecessors, and become as precious in their individual ways.
Give yourself lots of time to grieve. The only way out of it is through it.
Lots of love and sincere condolences for yor loss.
 
The price we pay for being able to love absolutely, is that we do love absolutely. This means that those people who can give their all to an animal not only do so, but need to do so. I am sure that in time there will be another equine that needs the level of dedication which you and your OH have demonstrated that you can give, or just one that will benefit from it.
 
GW i sadly lost my 'little man' two years ago now and know exactly how you feel, i spent weeks trying to save him but sadly to no avail :( the vets were excellent with the little man and me and thankfully took care of all the necessities when the time came.

I didnt know how i was going to get through it at the time, but thankfully time does help. I tried to think of all the good times i had had with my 'little man' and truly believe now that i could not have done any more for him. he too had rotated and dropped pedal bones and sadly wouldnt improve as he had the added complication of cushings / metabolic syndrome too.

I'm sure your 'big lad' would thank you for all the time you devoted to him throughout his time with you and all the hard work you put into trying to save him. There really is nothing more you could have done, and i know that from being there with my 'little man'

I hope you can soon see a way forward and look fondly on the times you shared with 'the big lad' - my thoughts are with you :)
 
I've followed this thread from day one and I can truly say I am deeply deeply sorry for you. He knew he was loved, how could he not, there aren't many horses that get that level of dedication, companionship and affection showered upon them.
 
I am so so sorry. You did everything you could and more. He is at peace now, take comfort from the lovely memories you have of him xxxx
 
I've been lurking on this thread for a while on my old account.

Feared the worst when I saw this post back on the first page.

He was lucky to have such a dedicated and caring mummy. I can't imagine how you must feel right now. I've never been in this position myself before but you have my utmost sympathy. Big hugs for you sweetheart.

R.I.P Big Fella
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