Winter Depression

I'm not doing much with the horses at all. I do have someone coming to rode Rigs 2 x a week now, so H is doing at least 2 hacks. I also have a jumping lesson a week when I can, just low stuff to tick over. I am lungeing 2 x a week too but it is usually less than 20 minutes, so very minor.

I'm just happy to concentrate on getting them through winter ticking over. Their patios outside the stables are amazing as they're only out on the all weather turnouts 8am to 1pm, then in. But in is in-and-out so I don't feel guilty.

Tack is dirty! I am blessed with the all weather so there is no mud.

I had plans but winter is miserable!
 
I am thinking of setting up a winter calendar with ferrero rochers to last me until spring. I open my advent calendar every night once the ponies are tucked up in bed and will miss it next month!
 
My biggest winter issue is that every nerve and cell in my body is screaming, "hibernate!!!" but what I in fact need is more energy, because if I could get up earlier, start work earlier, and get to the yard earlier, life would be a hell of a lot easier, but that seems impossible. And knowing that is stressful, which makes me more soporific. I don't have answer.
God I feel this, in every inch of my soul 🙃
Me three. The horses have been coming in since mid Oct but it feels like a lifetime ago. I really struggle to get up so I just feel permanently exhausted at the moment. I get to the yard for between 7.15am and 7.45am, start work by 9am (from home, thank god!), back up for 4.30 ish and by the time 8pm comes around I can barely keep my eyes open.
 
Me three. The horses have been coming in since mid Oct but it feels like a lifetime ago. I really struggle to get up so I just feel permanently exhausted at the moment. I get to the yard for between 7.15am and 7.45am, start work by 9am (from home, thank god!), back up for 4.30 ish and by the time 8pm comes around I can barely keep my eyes open.

Yep. I work flexi-time so if I get out of bed and leave for work by 6:30am I can finish at 4pm which gets me to the yard for 5:30pm with plenty of time to sort my horses and ride. But I don’t. I struggle to get out of bed at 7am, I don’t get into work until gone 9am, back home for 7pm which by the time I’ve done the yard jobs puts me at 8pm with no time to ride. Home by 8:30/9pm feel guilty and fed up I haven’t ridden. Cook dinner, go to bed, the cycle continues….. 🙄
 
I have burned out, big time. It's the work Christmas meal on Wednesday and I just want to miss it - I'm just not up for forced socialising. I've already said no to the after work social for my team. I'll be done in by two hours with that lot pretending to love everyone. 😁 I was supposed to run or swim yesterday and cancelled. Feeling more with it, today, but drinking lots of lemon balm tea to stave off migraine.
I am thinking of setting up a winter calendar with ferrero rochers to last me until spring. I open my advent calendar every night once the ponies are tucked up in bed and will miss it next month!
If this is what motivates you, do it. Sounds like an excellent idea. :D
 
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