Louise_Pink
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Hi, just joined today. I have been learning to ride for 10 months, group lessons once a week and 2 x private lessons a month - very expensive. Im 30 and decided to take up the hobby as i suffer from depression and want something to focus on. However i am so paranoid i am not good enough, in group lessons i freeze if we do one at a time exercises and the group watch - i cant do it. The group that learn after our group arrive 15mins before the end of our lesson, i just panic i believe they are watching me and judging me sometimes ive cried going home because i worry. I cannot get my trot diagonals, i still cant even canter a 20min circle with control (had a big fall last week). Several times i have thought just to give up - but i really want to do this when i am around horses i feel happy. It took me alot of lessons to learn to drive and didnt pass until 5th test as i was so unco-ordinated/nervous.
Any tips please ? how long will it take for everything to slip into place ?
I have even started to worry my instructor is sick of me, i feel like apologising to him for having to have me in his lessons. I am not shy, i am a loud bubbly person on the outside so i dont know how he would feel if i told him just how nervous i am when people watch.
Any tips please ? how long will it take for everything to slip into place ?
I have even started to worry my instructor is sick of me, i feel like apologising to him for having to have me in his lessons. I am not shy, i am a loud bubbly person on the outside so i dont know how he would feel if i told him just how nervous i am when people watch.