Cedars
Well-Known Member
Having a really bad day so I apologise in advance for how moany this will be. I have flu so am really rough.
We have four horses. One is mine, two are my OHs, and one is his mother's. I am a university student, doing a full time course training to be a teacher. My OH works very hard, 2hrs drive away from here. His mother is only here at weekends due to work. We are on our own yard with nobody else, so there is no extra help, just the three of us.
Because I am at university, my boyfriend obviously financially supports me, and he definitely has much more than his fair share of house bills. We split all the food costs, pet costs etc, its just things like the electrics and the gas that he pays. Because of this, I am aware that I will do more than my 'fair share' of the animals, in payment, so to speak.
His mother is interesting. She owns the yard, and we don't pay livery, so clearly we are very much indebted to her in that sense. However, she just doesn't do anything with her horse and it is getting to the point where I'm going to really lose my temper. Her husband is not at all horsey, so, I appreciate that one day a weekend (of the three they're here) she spends solely with him - thats fine by me. During the week though, I have her horse full time, with all the crapola that comes with that (literally...) so is it too much to expect that when she is here on the weekends, she actually does something? Take, for example, this weekend. She was here all day Friday - and all she did was sweep the yard, once. No mucking out, no poo picking (despite us asking her). Saturday she went out all day (as her 'nonhorsey day') - fine by me. Sunday, she always has two riding lessons. She literally (this is no exaggeration) turned up at 12pm for her lesson at 12.15pm, got on her horse, rode for an hour and got off. Then she did, to be fair to her, half arsedly help around the yard - but she went in for lunch (her house is on site, ours isn't, I wasn't invited in), did a grand total of a wheelbarrow worth of poo picking, held open some haynets. I did EVERYTHING else (my boyfriend was at work).
Then, yesterday evening, she told tales on me to my boyfriend (I am aware how young that sounds) saying that I hadn't even bothered get to the horses until 11am (I did - they had breakfast nets before I turned out later, but she wouldn't know this as she didn't get out of bed until 10am), and basically she'd be spying on my movements all weekend, telling my OH what I had and had not been doing. So my OH comes home with a temper on him yesterday, kicking off that he doesn't know the full picture about what I'm doing with his horses.
Today, I was meant to be going in to uni, but I didn't because his horse has a swollen leg. Fine, I thought, day off, sucks but not the end of the world. Started to poo pick (which hasn't been done all week because I've been on placement and I'm the only person who does any really) and didn't stop - 18 wheelbarrows I've done today. I'm ill and the ground is absolutely disasterous, clay soil so you might as well drag a stone through it rather than a wheelbarrow, but EIGHTEEN WHEELBARROWS.
Final straw was that OH came home from work, has gone absolutely nuts that there is still 2 wheelbarrows to do in the field, and he needs to fill up water buckets. That is IT, I've done everything else. Its his day off tomorrow, and he's kicking off because 'he'll have to do all the mucking out on his day off'.
Am I unreasonable to be thinking, I NEVER get time with my horse, I'm not allowed to ride any of their horses and mine is a baby, I had half hour with her this weekend when I sat on her and I'm being made to feel like I'm a devil for spending that time not mucking out. It feels like they both expect me to do everything, and that when they turn up on their days off everything should be done. Whereas I feel like actually, they wanted horses, their days off should be filled with doing the stuff that I do EVERY DAY!
Sat here in tears thinking, I just can't do this this winter. But I can't walk away either - because I'll lose my horse (who is in my OHs name) and I'll lose my OH because he's told me in no uncertain terms before that if I walk away from the horses, I can get out of the house and out of the relationship.
I know that the finances are difficult because I don't pay my way with bills/livery, but I feel like I definitely do the lion's share of the work and I just don't think I can do it any more.
Cookies if this makes sense to anyone.
xx
We have four horses. One is mine, two are my OHs, and one is his mother's. I am a university student, doing a full time course training to be a teacher. My OH works very hard, 2hrs drive away from here. His mother is only here at weekends due to work. We are on our own yard with nobody else, so there is no extra help, just the three of us.
Because I am at university, my boyfriend obviously financially supports me, and he definitely has much more than his fair share of house bills. We split all the food costs, pet costs etc, its just things like the electrics and the gas that he pays. Because of this, I am aware that I will do more than my 'fair share' of the animals, in payment, so to speak.
His mother is interesting. She owns the yard, and we don't pay livery, so clearly we are very much indebted to her in that sense. However, she just doesn't do anything with her horse and it is getting to the point where I'm going to really lose my temper. Her husband is not at all horsey, so, I appreciate that one day a weekend (of the three they're here) she spends solely with him - thats fine by me. During the week though, I have her horse full time, with all the crapola that comes with that (literally...) so is it too much to expect that when she is here on the weekends, she actually does something? Take, for example, this weekend. She was here all day Friday - and all she did was sweep the yard, once. No mucking out, no poo picking (despite us asking her). Saturday she went out all day (as her 'nonhorsey day') - fine by me. Sunday, she always has two riding lessons. She literally (this is no exaggeration) turned up at 12pm for her lesson at 12.15pm, got on her horse, rode for an hour and got off. Then she did, to be fair to her, half arsedly help around the yard - but she went in for lunch (her house is on site, ours isn't, I wasn't invited in), did a grand total of a wheelbarrow worth of poo picking, held open some haynets. I did EVERYTHING else (my boyfriend was at work).
Then, yesterday evening, she told tales on me to my boyfriend (I am aware how young that sounds) saying that I hadn't even bothered get to the horses until 11am (I did - they had breakfast nets before I turned out later, but she wouldn't know this as she didn't get out of bed until 10am), and basically she'd be spying on my movements all weekend, telling my OH what I had and had not been doing. So my OH comes home with a temper on him yesterday, kicking off that he doesn't know the full picture about what I'm doing with his horses.
Today, I was meant to be going in to uni, but I didn't because his horse has a swollen leg. Fine, I thought, day off, sucks but not the end of the world. Started to poo pick (which hasn't been done all week because I've been on placement and I'm the only person who does any really) and didn't stop - 18 wheelbarrows I've done today. I'm ill and the ground is absolutely disasterous, clay soil so you might as well drag a stone through it rather than a wheelbarrow, but EIGHTEEN WHEELBARROWS.
Final straw was that OH came home from work, has gone absolutely nuts that there is still 2 wheelbarrows to do in the field, and he needs to fill up water buckets. That is IT, I've done everything else. Its his day off tomorrow, and he's kicking off because 'he'll have to do all the mucking out on his day off'.
Am I unreasonable to be thinking, I NEVER get time with my horse, I'm not allowed to ride any of their horses and mine is a baby, I had half hour with her this weekend when I sat on her and I'm being made to feel like I'm a devil for spending that time not mucking out. It feels like they both expect me to do everything, and that when they turn up on their days off everything should be done. Whereas I feel like actually, they wanted horses, their days off should be filled with doing the stuff that I do EVERY DAY!
Sat here in tears thinking, I just can't do this this winter. But I can't walk away either - because I'll lose my horse (who is in my OHs name) and I'll lose my OH because he's told me in no uncertain terms before that if I walk away from the horses, I can get out of the house and out of the relationship.
I know that the finances are difficult because I don't pay my way with bills/livery, but I feel like I definitely do the lion's share of the work and I just don't think I can do it any more.
Cookies if this makes sense to anyone.
xx