Casey76
Well-Known Member
I mainly school. I still occasionally get panic attacks at even the thought of hacking out, even though I haven't had anything dreadful happen in the last 20 years! I went from being terrified to hack, to really enjoying hacking by myself (though no cantering) on my old horse, back to being terrified - for no reason - on T. I can just about manage to go round the square, which never loses sight of the yard and takes 10 mins max, but going further afield, which means going through the village or going on the road I have to really psych myself up for. The last time I went out we nearly got wiped out by a transit van (courier - typical!), and although T didn't budge, it made my physically sick to feel the van going by so fast and so close. Unfortunately T really takes confidence from her rider, so while others find her a really safe fun hack, with me she is very nervy and spooky.
If I didn't have any roadwork, I'd be 100% better, but any roadwork really gives me an almost PTSD-type reaction after an accident I had half a lifetime ago.
If I didn't have any roadwork, I'd be 100% better, but any roadwork really gives me an almost PTSD-type reaction after an accident I had half a lifetime ago.