Be good up there, Milo

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So sorry.

Horrible decision at any age but undoubtedly harder when they are young.

You are extremely brave and selfless to do what will have broken your heart but will have saved him from a lifetime of a pain.

Thinking of you. X
 

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Thank you for such kind responses. I wasn't sure if I wanted to post as it's still so raw, but your words have really helped. Milo was my 'heart horse'. He had something special about him - he was larger than life and so clever and funny. It doesn't feel real to be writing this.

I'll miss the quiet moments in his stable the most, teaching him tricks or working on his idiosyncrasies. He was one of these animals who knew exactly how to manipulate the situation to get treats! And get treats he did.

It's easier when the decision is black and white, but this was so grey, and I agonised for weeks. I shredded myself apart over the question of Have I done enough? and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I knew there would always be one more thing to try but that nothing was going to cure an incurable condition. He had a long life ahead of him and I couldn't rest easy knowing it was most likely going to involve pain for him on a near constant basis.

You were a naughty pony, but so worth it, Miles.

Here here is on what I imagine was the best day of his life... allowed to eat all the grass he wanted and then taking an afternoon nap!

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What a handsome boy. Very sorry for your loss.
If it's any consolation I had to do the same with a 7yo, similar issues. We could have tried retirement on bute but at that age? Who is it for? Not them.
You did the right thing. It gets easier. I still think of mine every day, 2 years on, and sometimes I go over the whole what if thing. But I know it was right.
I managed to find one with a very similar personality, purely by coincidence, and I often find myself comparing the two but only in a good way.
 

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I am so, so srory to hear you have lost Milo, He was a beautiful, handsome lad, and I can see why he has broken your heart. I have said many times before, the right decision is always the hardest to make.

Please be kind to yourself - you did Milo proud and he was lucky to have you as his owner.

Thank you for sharing these lovely photographs of Milo with us all. X
 

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So sorry for you. I know how hard it was to let my old boy go, but he’d had a long life and a couple of years retirement. It must be so much harder when they are young.

Look after yourself. Xx
 
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It is extra hard when they are 'too young' but you made the best decision for him.


RIP Milo
Agree it is doubly hard when they are so young but broken. Been there - shed the tears. Keep telling yourself you have done a brave and selfless thing and remember the good times.
Look after yourself.
 

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Oh god, so so sorry to hear this. I have followed your posts and hope you take comfort from knowing you did right by your beautiful boy.

It will hurt like hell for a while. But we take the hit and feel the hurt so they don’t have to.

You will cry. A lot. It will come at moments you don’t expect.

You will second guess yourself. No point saying there is no value in this. It will happen. When it does, remind yourself of why you made the decision you did.

Do a bit of nesting. Find something you enjoy doing to fill your time. Wallow a bit, then try to find a new focus. Wrap his memories gently in tissue paper and put them in a beautiful box in a safe corner of your mind, to take out and linger over when you are ready.

There are some lovely friends waiting for Milo over the bridge.

Have a big hug from me.
 
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