Devastating news :(

kez1001 said:
I am worrying i made the decision too soon :( she was a hardy wee thing and i keep thinking she might of been the small % miracle, but i know that that would of been a big risk. The vet offered to keep her comfortable overnight and i could have her PTS in the morning but as a nurse and well aware of how septiciamia (blood poisoning) works i would have never forgiven myself if she had went into septic shock overnight and also the thought of drivng to vets to say goodbye was too awful i would of thought i had left her alone all night, scared and in a strange place :(

life is **** :(
so sorry about your horse too, its always the good ones :(
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Kez I've posted already but still thinking of you :(. HenryHorn posted earlier in this thread (very bravely, as it must be upsetting) about having been in the same position; but making the opposite decision to yours, and really regretting it. I hope in time you can take some comfort from that. It's natural to wonder "what if", but it's best avoided if you can (easier said than done, I know).

I've also swithered about posting this, but as you seem to be feeling so much guilt I hope it might help a little. A couple of months ago, my own mare stood on a rusty nail out hacking. I have no idea how, as I was on a road, it must have been sticking straight up for it to have punctured her sole. I didn't realise until I read your post just how lucky she (and I) had been that the nail didn't go in too far. So please please please don't think you were in any way to blame. Sometimes accidents happen, and you and Izzy have sadly been on the receiving end of the worst set of circumstances and bad luck. However Izzy did have one piece of good luck that day - that you didn't let her suffer, and loved her to the end. That's all they ask of us really :)
 
oh god that is soooo heartbreaking.
kerry i am so so sorry for your loss and can't say anything to help except echo the others that you have done the right thing by her.
HUGE HUGS(((((((())))))))))
stay strong.
 
So sad...... I nearly had to cope with losing my boy at very short notice and often wondered how I would feel. Felt devastated enough just reading this - all of you hopes and dreams snuffed out in a flash.

So sorry for your loss x
 
I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine what you must be going through. Such a beautiful horse and clearly well loved.
 
now_loves_mares said:
Kez I've posted already but still thinking of you :(. HenryHorn posted earlier in this thread (very bravely, as it must be upsetting) about having been in the same position; but making the opposite decision to yours, and really regretting it. I hope in time you can take some comfort from that. It's natural to wonder "what if", but it's best avoided if you can (easier said than done, I know).

I've also swithered about posting this, but as you seem to be feeling so much guilt I hope it might help a little. A couple of months ago, my own mare stood on a rusty nail out hacking. I have no idea how, as I was on a road, it must have been sticking straight up for it to have punctured her sole. I didn't realise until I read your post just how lucky she (and I) had been that the nail didn't go in too far. So please please please don't think you were in any way to blame. Sometimes accidents happen, and you and Izzy have sadly been on the receiving end of the worst set of circumstances and bad luck. However Izzy did have one piece of good luck that day - that you didn't let her suffer, and loved her to the end. That's all they ask of us really :)
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i think you are right avoiding the what ifs is probably the best bet, my instructor had been joking at the start of the lesson that i seemed distracted and if i wanted to wait and do lesson the next day and you can imagine how that thought is running through my head.

the accident with your own mare is how i thought this would of panned out to be honest, i just didnt think it would of been that bad the vet really didnt either as although he was negative he thought furthest it would of went was navicular bursa, he was shocked also at the damage. i wouldnt wish what happened to us on anyone, i am so glad your mare was ok and i genuinely mean that. The pain my poor horse would have been in would have been immense. I really hope that in time i do realise i was kind to her, i just feel horrible and weak right now :(
 
hope i haven't re upset you by dragging this post back up
but i haven't dropped in for a few days and feel so sad for you i couldn't not reply
i'm so sorry for your loss , i can only imagine what your going through but it is true time is a great healer and it does get easier although they are never forgotten

its 5 years since i found my horse dead in the field and i still think of her now and have the odd tear
take care xx
 
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